Off to Montreal

Haha. At last a vacation. In 2 hours will be heading to Montreal. Going with a new found partner by book! "The Happiness Hypothesis" by Jonathan Haidt. Good book, good company.

Will be back in about 6 days time. =)

Thou shall hate winter

This is about what happened yesterday. I had my chemistry at 8am in the morning. The night before it was snowing and accumulated about 3 inches thick. I was up awake and studying for the exam and it was about 7am the snow shower stopped and changed into a heavy rain with freaking strong winds!!

Snow + Rain = Very very very messy slushy slushy environment outside. Gosh. And I had to cycle to my exam hall which was at Metro Toronto Convention Centre, so I had to cycle longer than usual to get there. I was too busy studying that I forgot to check the time. it was about 7.20am and well it wasn't too late but I need to find the exact location of my exam hall inside the building so I rushed and I was lazy to take out my winter shoes. I thought it wont be so bad since the snow was not so heavy. Big mistake.

I pakai la that normal sneakers from Malaysia yang tak kalis air. Hopped on my bicycle and started pushing my way through the slushy road. Fuh. It was so slippery!! And the wind blowing like want to send me off flying! Lucky at least I was wearing proper jackets, yeah jackets. One not enough. My body did not get wet but my pants were soaking wet!! The shoes and my feet!! It felt like being placed inside the freezer. The toes paraylsed.

Oh yeah, me cycling gloves. Not waterproof so... Frozen fingers as well. I did my 3 hour exam with that icefilled shoes. Ooo. Brr. Chemistry was a hell lot tough. Monstrous!! 50 objectives in 3 hours. I was wondering why are they giving so much time for 50 objective questions? See the paper only know. Dropped dead halfway. there were about 9-10 questions that even if you get to open a textbook, you wont be able to get them right. Complex applications. I was sitting at the front most table and my chemistry professor was right in front of me staring all the time. All that I was thinking was "damn! If I could only read your mind!!"

Done with exams had to go through the rain and slushy sloshy road again. The wind was even stronger this time. Adui. It was like a battlefield! I was nearly home, when I got down from my bicycle and wanted to cross the road and so I psuhed the bike. There was this huge pile of snow by the pavement. Considering myself already in a terrible mess, I wanted to mess things up. So I went around kicking snow! Nice! Until my foot hit a hard hard object. OUCH!! Damn. It was a big rock covered by snow. Manalah saya tau. =(

Reached home. Straight into the bath!! Ahh... hot water, hot water!! I was under the shower for about 30 mins. Defrozing my toes and my fingers. Its a weird feeling when frozen body parts get sudden hot water treatment. Like as if you cant feel anything but there is something. Ahh. I don't wanna go out anymore. But my food stock not gonna last for another day. Arghh. Low temperature means high food consumption. I had been eating non-stop.

That's it. I need to sleep. My sleeping pattern is really out of order. High entropy change in body metabolism rate. (entropy = "degree of chaos")

I need my eternal summer. Any votes?

Connecting-Connecting-Connected-Online

This is not the right time to be blogging but yeah I am. I dumped my laptop on Nov 30th so that I could (I thought) actually concentrate on my finals which is gonna start on Dec 7. Things didn't turn out fine. Haha. So stupid of me! My Economics, Chemistry and Physics notes are in my laptop and how to study without it? Plus past year papers are also online which I did not print out before. =(

Let that be it. Another different agenda. These, 5 days being disconnected I realized that my productivity level is far far below average. E.g. I could normally finish 3 topic sections of calculus + exercises in one hour and a half with my laptop by my side and without, I could only finish 2 topic sections in that same time frame minus exercises!! Sigh..

My original hypothesis was, "If I could avoid from being distracted by my laptop, I could use that time to study." Hell, my hypothesis is far from true. The conclusion after the experiment is "Time is divided for studies and for laptop distractions with a marginal ratio of 2 : 4 and productivity level is average." I know this is not gonna explain anything. Its kinda weird and confusing. Below would be some scenarios that I went through :

Without Laptop

1. Everyday, I am sleeping for 12 - 13 hours!! Damn it. Too much of sleep makes me lazy.

2. I started skipping my physical exercises and use that time to sleep instead.

3. My sleeping function is going haywire. It was suppose to be Inverse Sleep Function (nocturnal) but now it is back to Normal Sleep Function.

4. Related to 3. Since now I sleep at night instead of day, I had to study during the day instead of night. My productivity level during daytime = very very low and slow.

5. When I get bored studying which happens occasionally and periodically (every 15 - 20 mins), I stand up from my chair and start reading novels or go to the window and stare at the road, walk around my room aimlessly, going out of the house and to the bakery to get my stomach filled up every now and then, and also a very high tendency to jump on the bed and hide myself under the blanket. (all these activities are eating my time).

6. It is TOO QUIET!! Haha. Had to complain on that. =P

With Laptop

1. I sleep a good 4 - 6 hours. This regulates my normal body metabolism rate and keeps me active and I have more time in a day to spend.

2. I exercise regularly although I don't know what this has to do with the absence and presence of laptop, it simply happens to be the case.

3. I sleep when I am non-productive and am wide awake when its the best time for me to study; night! To relate this to why the sleeping pattern changes is because of MSN buddies. I wait to chat with my friend back in Malaysia. This keeps me up awake at night. =)

4. When I have the laptop and if I get bored studying, I usually chat, go check facebook, read news or listen to music. All these are done with me not moving from the table. Higher possibility that I will continue with my studies.

5. Music! Keeps me alive. Haha. Not so quiet is better.

Okay. That's it. My laptop is actually helping my studies. Haha. Just need to cut down the distractions a Little bit. =D


 

Offline

Okay. Since my final exams are coming up in about 7 days, I decided to dump my laptop. The main distraction, no the ONLY distraction that keeps me away from my textbooks. I find it that dumping it is the only possible solution. Let it hibernate without electricity in my wardrobe for some time. Haha. Why in the wardrobe? Saja saja. It might wanna try some of my clothes.

**

Life is odd is it not?

I Deem

I deem for a warm hug

To cuddle with you under your arms

My heart sedated with drug

Your hazel eyes a virtue that charms

I deem for serendipity

A moment to ponder upon the deck

A scarlet silk, smooth around your neck

Dreaming of you, an image so pretty

I fell…

I’m falling for you

You, that wishing star

Shining through my untreated scar

I’m keen in wait to hear from you…

I deem for a dream

Of you and me, forever to be

The colours as light as cream

Are now fading in a pool of stream

I deem for your love

To feel and to heal

The myth is surreal

And I deem…

Of you for real…

Taiping People!

To all my readers from Taiping, try to guess where I took this pic! We have a tunnel in Taiping.

Anyway, the pic I'm talking about is my new header picture. =)

Reflections

This was my first poem that I made for someone else...


Glimmers in the midst of the night

Your shadow; dim

Between the ripples of the lake

Amongst the moon and the stars

You reflect a thousand smile

I see you

In emerald green

Surpassing the beauty of nature

Your inspiration, care and love

Summoned this feeble creature

To face life and reality

And have I taken the oath

To be with you forever

Living Life

When one has a friend
He has the world

When one has a wife
He has all the love he needs

When one has a pet
He’s never lonely

When one has an enemy
He’s not always happy

When one has a rival
He puts up his best

When one believes in fate
He no longer wishes

When one chooses his path
He is never certain

When one has faith
He feels strong

When one gives
He cares

When one loves
He deserves

When one believes he would
He will

When one suffers
He is alive

When one fails
He succeeds

When one tries
He never cries

When one sees
He believes

When one regrets
He learns

When one thinks
He controls

When one is unaware
He hits bottom

When one is alert
He bounces sky-high

When one cries
He is to blame

When one smiles
He makes a difference…



If one’s conscious life is too rigid, too regimented, then the surface may crack at times, and we are unprepared for the strange emotions or sensations we experience. Free yourself from your binding thoughts and let your instincts lead the way to joy. Face life with a fiery temperament and you’ll be gifted with fortune. It comes only to those who dares to seek. Life's like that.

Crystal Water

"You are the best among the best. Wait for me and I'll be back. Just one year. I'll give you a call every night before I go to bed okay?"

I still hear the echoes of his words in my ears. Those voices in my head. I wanted to tell him that I was no longer the wife he had expected me to be. He was away for a year and things have changed far more towards desperation than he could ever expect. I have sinned badly and I regret badly. There is no excuse. Some mistakes are irredeemable. One would not know or understand the true pain of regret unless by experience.

Just a year after our marriage, Dylan had to go for a research expedition along the coast of the Mediterranean Sea. He is a marine biologist and he spends most of his time on Crystal Water the ship he works on. I was left behind alone. It was my own choice. I did not want to lose my own job. I need a career to live on with. And that was that.

Six months passed, and he never failed to call me every night. Just as he promised. Dylan is always sweet and full of enthusiasm and when it comes to me, he'd always go "If there is a moment when I fail to move, it is when I look into your eyes." I missed him terribly. When he was away, my colleague Ryan would drop by my house to see if things are okay with me. He was a close friend of mine and he was an asset to me especially when Dylan was not around. We went out for dinner occasionally and we had light drinks over the weekend to release stress from work. Things worked out pretty well for me but it did not end well.

It was raining heavily that night. Autumn rain felt cold. Ryan and me were having our normal Saturday night out, drinking. We had a bottle of Chateau Fussignac Bourdeaux. Dark ruby coloured wine. Fruity but seductive. It felt nice when it flowed pass my palate. We talked for a while and enjoyed listening to some fine Mozart's. By the time we decided to leave, it was late and the downpour seemed to be heavier. Ryan took the wheels and slowly we to headed to my house. Upon reaching, I invited Ryan to stay at mine instead of traveling far North to his house. It was dangerous. The road to his grange was not well lit and with the storm coming in, it would have been difficult for him. So, it was decided that Ryan stays.

The guest room was for Ryan for the night and I cleaned it up a little. I gave him dry clothes to change. It was Dylan's. It fitted perfectly. We were not feeling sleepy and sat down on the sofa for a movie. After some time looking for a suitable movie, Ryan chose to watch P.S. I Love You. I bought that one a few months ago but never watched. I was scared I would fall to tears as I was truly missing Dylan and a romantic movie like that would not help. Then again, I did not say no to Ryan's choice and we watched together. As the plot developed, my heart grew softer and softer to fragile. I didn't speak one word to Ryan. I was unaware that I had my head on his lap. Cold crystals were rolling down my cheeks.

I was cold, I felt weak and still felt the effect of alcohol in me. The movie ended. I did not budge from Ryan's lap. He thought I was asleep and carried me to my bed. He was about to go, when I stopped him and asked him to lay down by my side. I know deep inside, Ryan had a heart for me a long time before I was married to Dylan. He hesitated but I insisted. The temptation I felt was hard to resist, emptiness, loneliness and I felt as if I had to fill it with something; someone. We made love in that chilly night. Hoping that the autumn rain would wash away the sin we were about to commit. Little did I know, it was temporary. Regret was inevitable.

It was too late. I had enjoyed every bit of the night and my flesh felt warm after a long time. The sun was up and I woke up and found myself naked with Ryan by my side. Damn. Its not Dylan, what have I done? Remorse jolted up to my brain and anguish was hard to restrain. I felt hard to swallow. I went for the shower and took a long bath. Water seemed to heal temporarily. I stepped out and dressed up. Ryan was up as well. His eyes strayed and locked when it met mine. I looked away, ashamed. He changed into his wet clothes and without uttering a word slipped out of my house. I know he was hit hard.

A few minutes after, my phone alarm went on. It was beside my bed and I reached for it. When I saw the screen, my heart shattered to pieces. Three calls unattended and it was Dylan. He had called me last night and I was unaware. He had left a voicemail.

"Sarah, I know you are asleep. Sorry I was late to call today, I forgot the timezone difference! Haha. Anyway, today I had fun playing with some dolphins around the cove. They looked sweet just like you, sweetheart. I took some pics and I emailed them to you. Check your inbox first thing in the morning okay! Love ya."

The pain was rushing in as I looked through the pictures Dylan had sent me. Each had a picture of him with a wide smile. And his cool blue eyes were looking at me. He trusted me. Damn it. Guilt was hard to take. I felt lost, my appetite was down and I skipped work for days then to weeks. Both Dylan and Ryan called me everyday but I answered none. I could not talk. Not a word more from my mouth. Then, one evening, Ryan dropped by to check me out. I refused to talk or listen. I could not lay my eyes on him. He took a pencil and wrote something on a paper and left it on my kitchen table and left.

I raced to the kitchen to read what he wrote. I was deprived off conversation and I needed one desperately even if it means in a written form. He had left something else in addition to the letter he wrote. I took no notice of the small envelope beside and started to read the letter first.

"Sarah, I know its hard to take. I am worried about you. You have been missing for weeks and you locked yourself in that house of yours. It was my mistake as well. I'm sorry. You need to go to Dylan. He's probably worried sick about you. I know you would have ignored his calls as well just like how you ignored mine. Go to Dylan, he would not be angry with you. Tell him the truth face to face. It would be the best thing for you to do. Please, I beg you. I got to know from a friend that Crystal Water is docked at Gibraltar. I booked a flight for you tomorrow morning. Decide wisely and call me when you are ready and I'll fetch you to the airport. I'm sorry again, Sarah."

Shocked I was. In the small envelope was a ticket for me to Gibraltar. He was serious and I'm undecided. Thoughts ran through my nerves and to my brain. Will Dylan forgive me? Will he accept me again? I don't know what I'll do when I meet him. I would faint. Do I have any other choices? No. None. I'm ready to take whatever it takes to meet him again. I love him. It doesn't matter if he hates me after but I need to tell him the truth.

And so, I boarded the flight and thanked Ryan for his concern. He really loved me. It was a long long flight and I spent most of my time thinking and wondering what will happen to me. It felt like months have passed when I reached Gibraltar. I had a cab to send me to the port. I walked to the docking area and I spotted Crystal Water from far. Dylan and I had cruised in it together once for our honeymoon. He insisted in showing me his place of work. That time it was different, all I felt was happiness but here I am once again in front of Crystal Water feeling so hopeless.

I stepped in with permission from a crew member who guarded the entrance. I saw him once I was on the deck. He was facing the sea. The wind was strong and blew his hair. I felt difficult to take another step forward. I'm here at last. In front of me is Dylan, my handsome Dylan. I stood there watching him in silence. I took a few short steps towards him and he senses someone was around. He looked back and I saw that mixed expression in his face. Happiness, loneliness and emptiness altogether.

I embraced him tightly. As tight as I can. Letting go of all the energy that was left in me. Idid not utter a word when he started questioning why I was there, how I came and all that sort of questions. I answered none. I just wanted every empty space in me to be filled by his warmth. I was crying and I opened my mouth to talk.

"Dylan, I'm sorry. I made a mistake. I'm here to tell you a truth. I could not keep it any longer."

"I'm listening dear, I'm listening.. be calm."

"I.. I.. I slept with another man Dylan. I.."

I could not finish my words and ended it just there. Dylan was confused and worried. He took me to his room and asked me to rest on the bed. He gave me a glass of water.

"Sarah, get hold of yourself and tell me what happened slowly. You don't have to rush."

I cuddled under him and closed my eyes and narrated for him the incident that night. I looked at him when I was finished. His eyes. They had tears in them. I had never seen that glow before. But he managed to control himself and the tears did not fall. I thought he would leave me for good. Instead, there he was by my side. He held me close to him and whispered to me.

"Its okay sweetheart. I forgive you. I'm happy you told me the truth. I know you love me. I won't leave you alone again. Never. I promise. I love you Sarah."

He planted a gentle kiss on my forehead and caressed my cheek. And I heard voices deep in my head. My conscience. It said :

"Desperation leads to desperate consequences."

Mistakes irredeemable

I had a long bath today
Water seems to heal things temporarily
But the air is still foul.

Genesis of Light

A chosen star who failed to shine
Once given, my heart is no longer mine

A new star was born tonight
With charming hues of red and light

Look back into the mirror I gave
The soul inside is sound and save

I wish you freedom
A star destined for stardom
Winds be your guide build your kingdom

It matters to me.
Today the voice was born.
My starlight.


I realized. Hoping too much, will not get you anywhere. Hope has its limit. Sometimes, it has the power to bring you down. Time and time again, the choice remained but one. A road taken and yet no other fork met. The choice was mine and so I'm walking it now. With contentment, without regret.

Time heals a wound but it can never take away what's engraved in the heart.

Choice

Many had wondered and asked me why. They still do.


Why of all universities did I choose Ryerson

Never heard of it.

Why didn't choose University of Toronto or McGill?

Ryerson is not even in the list of the top 200.

Hate it when it happens. I have my own reasons. I wanted to get out of my comfort zone; not around my friends that is. To achieve that, I don't care which Uni I choose because isolation was my first priority.

Start all afresh and you learn even more. To me, where you get the cert is not important. What matters is how you bring yourself up as you grow, character-wise.

Ku tak tahu nak letak tajuk apa

Ini adalah syair balas kawanku.

Embun mengenang di pagi hari,
Dilindungi kehijauan penuh seri,
Jangan teringat bab hidupmu yang ngeri,
Bersamamu ingin ku menari.

Kau bagiku, kawan sejati,
Gelak ketawamu amat bererti,
Ku pasti,
Hilang kepiluan yang terpahat di hati.

Kasih itu bagaikan harta,
Nilai kebahagiaan tidak terkata,
Hidup ini permainan yang nyata,
Menang, kalah bergantung kepada kita.

Jika kau inginkan bunga penyeri,
Ku dapatkan mawar malar sehari,
Mawar merah kusisip di jari,
Moga kau simpan buat memori.

Kepedasan hidup sukar ditelan,
Jalan yang mudah menjadi pilihan,
Jangan kau hidup terus berangan,
Bangun dan lari merentasi halangan.

Kesungguhan mu buat ku terharu,
Mengejar di pelosok penjuru,
Tabahkan hati rindu berlalu,
Fikirkan boleh dan terbang dahulu.

Pengalaman hidup tak mungkin lupus,
Wujud ia hingga nyawamu pupus.

Hidup ini nikmat tidak terharga,
Kasihi ia, semoga kau ke syurga.

Apa macam? Boleh tak?

Critical Mass Cycling Journey

I'm exhausted. 1.13 am now. Still not sleepy but hell yeah, i'm TIRED!! I need sleeping pills. But hey, so many people requested me to upload pics of Canada. I just don't know why but I always feel lazy to do that. JUST that. I will try my best. Actually I did better ok!! At the bottom you will see video clips Le Tour de Canada!! Hehe.

Ok, since I joined the Cycling Club in Ryerson, my friend Jacob asked me to join him for a bike ride. Critical Mass is held once a month. 2nd Saturday of each month. (not sure if the details are exact or not) I had to go to Eglinton and Yonge intersection to meet the convoy.

And so, I pulled out my cycling map and checked the spot! Looked very near to me. Forgot to check the damn km ratio. I cycled and cycled for such a long time to reach the meet up point. I'm ALWAYS on time and usually early for any appointments. That's a policy that I seldom fail to follow. My pride. Since I didn't know the exact distance and I still didn't reach the place, I took out the map again and studied. Damn. I just made halfway there. and I had only 15 mins left.

That's it. Speeded like hell and managed to be there on time. Panting like a dog that ran around chasing after its tail for god knows how long. Lucky I had Fisherman's Friend (cherry flavour ~ funny why I'm starting to choose stuff with cherry flavour in it. I know someONE who will laugh at this.) to raise my glucose level up.

I met a few more cyclists there and we chatted a while before we took off. Not many turned up cause there was this Toronto International Film Festival thingy going on everyday for a week. So, the crowd went there. They had some Zombie Walk today. Haha. The locals dressed up in zombie outfits and all in Dundas Square. We were left with 5 people. Actually had 7 but 2 larikan diri after some kilometres.

Gosh. We cycled so far! Dont know the exact distance though, but it took 6 hours in total for me to go and come back to my house. Nearly the end of the journey I started to feel cramps. My bicycle had big tyres (normal ones) which is good for long distance. Didn't have time to change them. So, I had to exert extra energy because of more frictional force and it slows down real fast and I have to pedal and pedal!

I miss my lovely old bike. And my dad's bicycle shop! Man! How much I miss it now! I could have modified and improvised that 2nd hand bike into a high class road cruiser!! Stupid tyres plus the fact that I have not cycled for a pretty long time since I joined college back in Malaysia. around 1 year. I cycled but very seldom and extremely short distance. So..... my freaky muscles dah tak boleh pakai. I do go out jogging often but jogging involves "gastrocnemius and soleus" a.k.a calf muscles. However, for cycling I don't need them that much!! I need the hamstring group.

Lucky just lucky I made it. I still had stamina with me. It helped. Phew.. Ok cut the crap!! Membebel je saya. Look at the clips below. I did took the clips as I cycled. Don't play play. (wasn't easy ~ kids don't do this at home ok) I dropped my camera once as I ran into a pothole and the camera slipped off and fell!! I thought it was gone for good. But hey miraculously IT survived!! The odd thing is, there was not even a scratch even though it fell really badly and on top of tar road. (must have my blood running it kot ~ I'm always save)


















Haha. The videos very bad quality. Shaking here and there. (blame the cameraman)

Here are some pics as well. Its in facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2032558&id=1538372116&l=cde88fa573

Acknowledgement

Hmm.. This post is for my new friend. Haha. Not exactly new. She commented on me using too many emoticons so to acknowledge her, I'll start using extremely few numbers of them.

Hope you read this Miss. Lol.

Huge airport, hostile creature

I'm at Dubai airport now. 0914 Malaysian time and 0514 local time.

29 of us here. We were at the transfer desk waiting for our transit check. The girls were busy taking pictures. Out of excitement.

Then, there came this freaky lady walking fast and halted at the girls (she was wearing some kinda UEA airport service officer uniform).

"Give me your camera. Come here, come here. Your camera." (I escorted the girl in case she needs help with two more friends)

The poor girl got shocked. Scared cause the freaky lady called out and frowned at her as if she had committed a murder.

The FL (freaky lady^abbreviations are life savers; please ignore note) then freakishly tried to turn on the camera and check the pics taken. Well, whaddaya know? She gave up at first try.

"Open it, show me what pics you took."

The girl showed. There was only 2 pics (if I'm not mistaken) of the girl and her friend with the airport as the background. FL said :

"This is the only thing you took? You, let me see your pics" (turning to the girl's friend who was a girl as well).

Same kinda pics and then FL gave up and simply walked away. When asked what was wrong and what she was looking for, she said nothing and remained dumb as she naturally is.

Stupid. Such commotion for nothing? Everyone were looking at her. Poor girl. My guess was FL had some sort of excessive PMS thingy today. She was scared we might accidentally take her pic wetting in her pants. Second hand sanitary pad. Cheap stuff ye know?

Or was she having sex at the back of the counter? And was shocked to see flashing lights at her? I don't wanna imagine her nude. No point taking her pic in nude.

I actually wanted to go to FL and say that she was rude just like the McD guy (she didn't even say please! or explain why she was acting in such a way. Lol). But this time I pulled back. This is not my country. Better not mess with them. Then if they come after me with Arabian Knights, I'd be dead.

Moral of the story : Simply don't be a FL. Bad first impression for your country.

(anyway, Dubai airport is huge and reputable although you see a lot of sleepy heads down on the ground, sleeping with style)

Crazy guy at McD

Went to have lunch in McD today during my break. I stepped in and purchased my Mc Value Lunch. Was looking for the straw. Was not in its usual place. Searched, couldn't find, asked and found it resting beside the sauce table.

I was just about to take my seat when a man passed by walking furiously. The idiot nearly tipped off my drink!! That done, he was shouting. "Where is the straw?! Where is the straw?! You people don't know the right place to place it ah?!" He didn't give a second for the waiter to reply. He rushed to the cashier counter and shouted for straw again. The supervisor who happened to be there told him that it was near the sauce table. The bastard tak puas hati then scowled at him. "You supervisor kan? Don't you know where to place the straw?! I'm late for a meeting because of you!" (he made me real SICK) Then he turned around right to my table and BANG.

Fuck. This time he really spilled my drink and it was all over my shirt. Shit. I need to go to work. Pissed off, I turned at him. Polite at first (obviously he was elder than me but I wanted a quarrel).

"Excuse me sir, you just rammed into my table and spilled my drink all over."

"I was just looking for a straw and your table blocked my way."

"Bravo! That's a very solid reason hermit man (he was rather short. at least a bit shorter than I am), I admit. "

"What are you getting at? Don't you have menace talking to someone elder than you like that?"

"Practice what you preach. I might be younger than you but I guess by the way you act I can tell that you are no wiser than a 5 year old kid."

By this time everyone was looking at me and him.

Then he started shouting again like a raging mad bull. "What are you all looking at?"

I was half chuckling and addressed to him, "Sir, they have eyes sir. And so they look. You are looking at them as well sir, should they shout at you back?"

People started to laugh. And I felt power. LOL. Serves him right. Acting like a moron. From the looks, he looks like a pretty wealthy bussinessman or something. The hell I care. He need to be tamed. Unfortunately, by me.

Anyway, back to our hermit man. He was pissed off now. He came close to me and shouted,

"Watch your mouth!! You don't know who I am."

I entertained him coldly. Taking a bite of my Mc Chicken. I replied,

"Yeah right, as if I want to know who you are. You're a waste of time."

That rubbed him in. He was really fucked up. The next thing I know his hands were on my shirt. I remained calm, reached for my cup and sipped the remaining drink.

"Yes sir? Would you like to replace my shirt for a new one? You ruined it."

He was furious that I was acting so so calm. Can see that from his face. Vibrating with such anger that he could beat a rattle snake in battle.

He was ready to give me a punch when a man sitting beside my table held his hand hard.

"Back off before I call the police. You've made enough mess already. He's younger than you but he got brains and you don't."

Humiliated, he left his food and walked out of the restaurant.

The man who helped me patted me on the back.

"You're pretty good at dealing with people like him. He deserves it. I enjoyed the comedy relief for my lunch." He laughed and took his seat.

Everyone smiled at me and some gave me thumbs up. LOL. I welcomed the spotlight.

Lost Update

Oh my god.. Such a damn long time I didn't update my bloody blog. At last now I have time! Yeah! Have lots to crap.

It's Over

ICPU is over at last. Don't know whether to feel happy or sad. Freakin' bored. I simply hate it when I got nothing to do or when there's too many things to do that I don't know which one to choose.

Its decided. I'm gonna start leeching. Download and load my laptop as much as I can. Thanks to rapidshare, depositfiles, hotfile, megaupload, easyshare and quebfiles. Now, I don't have to pay for anything.

Rube Goldberg Project!! A.K.A. "Quackland Golf Resort"

Yeah!!! At last!! It worked!! We had a fluctuating success rate but it worked just perfectly at the end of the day!

Let 0 = failure and 1 = success

And this were the statistics.

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Haha! Lucky the last one was a GREAT SUCCESS!! Lol. It was worth it. We used up so much of our time on the project. Sleepless nights. Gosh. Popped so many balloons! (which was fun) and yeah.. fell into deep frustration when it failed for a number of times.. Haha.

Anyway, take a look at the video!! (sorry the video is not upright)




More pictures here!! Take a look! But before that, something about Quackland. Our end task was suppose to be lighting up a bulb. It was deprived of some deco and I happened to have a rubber ducky with me.

So, the rubber ducky ended up being lighted up! Lol. Its kinda cute anyway. And yeah, me and my friend Alfie stayed wake throughout the night and at around 500 a.m. we were discussing for a project name and in the end we decided the ducky as our mascot! That is how we got the name "Quackland Golf Resort." Hehe..


Woohoo!! That's our ducky!!
















If you take a closer look, the long road is labelled Quackland Highway. Lol. This is the result of not getting enough sleep.










Credits to Shang Khoon for the "potential energy car." Hehe..











One of our best steps!! The blue liquid is "Formula X." According to Alfie, it is edible but not tasty.












We scribbled everywhere! Hehe.. I like this magnet powered step as well..










Wanna party?? Let's pop the balloon!! Hehe.. Many people got scared when the balloon popped suddenly. Lol.








Whole view

Top View

Let's Meet In Heaven

This is an unexpected poem! It doesn't have a meaning. Really. Made it for the sake of supporting my friend's thesis. Hehe..



Let's Meet in Heaven

Fragments of our missing dream
Pieces from here and there
Fall in place along the line
Disappearing between you and me
Life seems so stagnant

People contain themselves in a prison of mind
Giving it a name; culture they say
Born in forms
Of indestructable laws and norms
Not letting it to adapt to change
My desires and needs nailed
I tried but failed

Don't they understand?
That my love has no boundaries
Race is not a matter
What more can I do?
I'm shattered into pieces
My love was tender and true
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

I'm pushed to my limits
I'm suffocating
I can't forget and let it go
If you love me, please dont do what I did
My last words to you my love..
I love you...
I'll meet you in heaven
Goodbye...

Busy!!

Sigh.. Really don't have much time to spend my time here blogging.. Exam is in 3 weeks time.. And final projects are reaching the deadlines..

So much work... So little time...

Sorry, have to end the post with this emoticon...

Trouble with words?

Here's a whole new vocabulary for ye! Just for laugh gags.



Assmosis - The process by which some people seem to absorb success and advancement by kissing up to the boss rather than working hard.

Beelzebug - Devil in the form of mosquito, that gets into your bedroom at three in the morning and cannot be cast out.

Blamestorming - Sitting down in a group, discussing why a deadline was missed or a project failed and who was responsible for it.

Bozone - The substance surrounding stupid people that stops bright ideas from penetrating. The bozone layer unfortunately, shows little sign of breaking down in the near future.

Bungee Jumping - Suicide with string attached.

Cannibal - Someone who is fed up with people.

Chickens - The only creature that you eat before they are born and after they are dead.

Divorce - The future tense of the word marriage.

Giraffiti - Vandalism, spray-painted very, very high.

Monogamy - A boring game for adults. Also refer to the disease one-gina.

I'm into penguins!!

Haha! All of a sudden I fell head over heels in love with penguins. They are my official mascots now! They are very far relatives of ducks.

Take a look at this article I found!!

MORGANTOWN, WV (IWR News Satire) - President George W. Bush was attacked by flock of angry penguins following his Independence Day message on climate change while visiting West Virginia University in Morgantown, West Virginia, July 4, 2005.

The penguins, which were part of a promotion for the March of the Penguins movie, attacked Bush after he said that he would not support a Kyoto style agreement on global warming.

Although Mr. Bush acknowledged that some of global warming was caused by human activity, he blamed the majority of the problem on "smelly, dirty animals like penguins, sea otters and capybaras".

Mr. Bush, who is known to have a severe bird phobia since childhood, fainted and then regained consciousness later after being treated with smelling salts.

Bush was then carried off on stretcher while sobbing and asking for his teddy bear until he was sped off in an ambulance.

CARTOONS UNANIMATED!!

Poke the Penguin - Poke the penguin at your own risk

Rico, Private, Kowalski, Skipper and Skipper's Girl

NOW WATCH THIS AND ENJOY!!

The Underwear

What's so special about underwears? Well, let me tell you. Today I found out that mine can fly...

It was hanging right by the window and when I went to it, it jumped off from the 19th-storey. And it escaped the jump unharmed.

It was a red underwear. My favourite colour.

Happy!!! I'm SO Happy!!

Hahaha!! Such a long long time!! It has been such a long long time since I last felt such happiness! I had longed for this so much more than anything else... I had once sacrificed my identity to save myself from a dreadful situation. I paid the price worthy of myself to save my life. I succeeded, though I lost the "me" in me.

From the tiny sparks that I saw today, it enlightened me and brought my flame back. Though not wholesome, a pinch of it would do for me. I'm very very happy!!! Haha! I know its a very confusing post to many but its relevant to me!

Hamlet Assignment!

We did this funny assignment last week that we had to put on props and costumes for the play Hamlet by William Shakespeare. Then, we took around 20 pics of us "acting" the play and present it to the class with some explanation on the significance of the freeze frames.

It was kinda fun as we used whatever we can get around us for props and costumes!! Wanna look at the results?? Here are some pics! LOL.






Haha! That crown is from Burger King!











Yep!! I'm acting as the ghost (it was supposed to be a ghost wearing armor).









I like this pic because of the lighting effects and the dark mood!











OK. OK. Don't laugh. I look extremely silly with that beard. (That's cotton! They stuck it on my cheek and chin with double-sided tape! OUCH!)












Hehe.. Here comes the ghost again!! (I'm fully wrapped with aluminium foil).




THIS IS THE MAKING OF HAMLET!!

(Got some funny pics to put under this section. But... Sob... I lost my pendrive that had all the pics... Will get the pics the next day from my friends! So wait and look out for the update!)



One of the most ridiculous picture of me... (proud to say that). That's a bowl on my head. Hey! my beard is coming off!!












Hahaha. Random pic.


















Please don't laugh at me. It's a girl's shirt. And I hate the lines on them.

No Joke On April Fools' Day

Want to see the most lame April Fool joke of the century? I found this interesting clip that you might want to checkout. Anyway, my fooling statistics for 2009, I didn't fool anyone but I got fooled once.

Watch this!!

Click the play button.

That Is So Sweet of You...

It was raining that day. Cold... I made my way into the air-conditioned classroom. Feeling colder, I shrinked the two frames of my shoulder to keep me warm. My eyes darted around the room searching for a familiar figure. Yes, it was her that I was looking for. I wondered how she is surviving the cold.

Yonder, I saw her in bright red. One arm on the other, sitting close to the wall. She has sensitive smooth skin, as light as cream. I watched her laughing jovially with her friends. Once, my eyes could not look away, glued to her pose and she caught me stealing a glimpse of her. In return, she gave me a pleasing smile.

I was contented with her reaction and smiled away, fancying myself sitting side by side with her. "Never mind now, one day I will sit with her and then I'll be the happiest person in the world. At least that's what I'd like to think," I told myself. Soon, the class commenced and I busied myself with work. From time to time, I took stealthy glances at her.

I noticed that her cheeks looked so pale and bloodless. It must be because of the chilly air. How I wished that I could rub my hands against hers to warm her up. "Sigh... What to do? I could just wish and let time to take its course. But its not so bad isn't it? Imagination is as evident as reality to me," I thought as I beckoned to my heart.

Shortly, class ended and the crowd of students dispersed. I waited for her when I came to the stairs, hoping to have a few words. She stayed back for a few minutes to ask some questions from our teacher and I waited still, my back leaning lazily against the wall and my thoughts lingered without a proper direction.

Before long, I heard her footsteps down the stairs. She saw me and stopped by my side, smiling sheepishly.

"You were waiting for me?"

"Yup!"

"Anything to say?"

"Nothing to say, just something to share..."

"Hmm... What is it?"

"Make a wild guess!"

"Come on... You know how lazy I am to think... Tell me! Tell me! I'm eager to know. What is it?"

At that instant, I reached out to her right hand and held it in both of mine, gently. Her tender hand was icy cold that I could feel the frost. I kept it for a few seconds in my grasp. As I let her hand slip, I said :

"Warmth, love and a place in my heart..."

"That is so sweet of you... I have no words to say..."

"I know you were cold. I can tell it from your face. You look weather-beaten and white. Just
wanted to add some colour in it. Care to give me a smile?"

"I'll give you a thousand if I can. Thank you... You really touched me..."

"I should thank you for that lovely smile of yours. It makes my day. Anyway, we should go.
Goodbye."

"Goodnight."

Education Inspector

Hehe... Another belated post!! Sigh... I'm procrastinating even in blogging. LOL. Well, never mind that. Here's a question, if you are a lecturer and you were told that an education inspector is going to come, what would you do?

Let me tell you what my English Lecturer did, Mr Dave Borden.

He actually discussed with us where to place the inspector when she comes and he found a perfect place! Lol. He said the best place for her was beside the rubbish bin. And yeah, he really did set the table there. RESERVED.

PS : Yan Ming! You demanded an update and here it is. Now I want you to create your blog!!!

CARTOONS UNANIMATED!!



I guess she did an unnamed baby. Father? Unknown too. Random.












I love that dog but I don't want to be its master.

















I beleaff spelin is nnot improtant. puh lease sport me?












Watch this video!! Its really really funny! The whole series is funny!!