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Redirecting my blog

2011-07-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps. To those who reads my blog whenever I update it (which I rarely do), I am officially redirecting my blog to tumblr. I realized that I can no longer find proper time to write some decent stuff instead I will be mostly photo blogging in tumblr. I will also be throwing in some quotes of my own and some poems from time to time. When I really find my brain working then I will write something more detailed. =)

Cheers! To my new blog! Link below :

http://crimsonsecrets.tumblr.com/

Pandemonium

2011-02-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

It has been quite a long time since I last updated my blog. Been running out of creativity juice yet again. This time the virus, it hit pretty strong. After a few months of poem writing in futility, I managed to scribble one out last night.

Pandemonium

It rattled and I opened my eyes

I know its not something that I should despise

Yet it fills my ears like cosmic noise

I stuttered and saw the world decolorize

I wish the minute hand would turn anticlockwise

This is just one of those dreams I fantasize

I wonder and try to visualize

Will the cling and clatter end when I find paradise?

How I became Super Thila.

2010-10-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

"As temperature approaches to -ve, the appetite approaches to infinity. Hence, the money in the pocket approaches 0."

Now, it is the mid of Fall. I loved the very beginning of it, with colours of red falling from the sky as I cycled around. But now the temperature is going down. I love wearing shorts. I always wear shorts and right now I guess its time to give up. Damn. I can't stand it cause I'm losing to the weather. I also hate wearing sweaters and jackets. Windbreakers are okay.

Its been below 10 degrees lately and I still am going around without a jacket and also still wearing shorts. Now, I'm not gonna give in to mother nature that fast am I? Haha. I do feel cold but somehow as I cycle the body heat helps to warm me up. I can stand a few more degrees lower I guess.

As I was cycling back home after a squash game few days ago I stopped at a red light and there was another cyclist who stopped beside me, a white guy wearing some thick jacket and winter gloves. He looked at me wearing a summer sports attire and gave me a weird stare and said "Aren't you cold??" I replied "Umm, I guess a little bit. I am still okay with it." He started laughing and said "Are you from the North Pole or something??" And it was green light already. I was moving and shouted "I am a distant relative of penguins!!"

It was actually about 5 degrees on that night. Did I feel cold? To be honest I did but after a 2 hours game of squash the intense body heat produced was far more than enough for me not to realize that it was cold out there. haha.

Oh there was another one more case too. I went out on a Saturday with two of my friends to a Bicycle Show at the Exhibition Centre in Toronto. We used a street car this time around and not the bicycle which was kinda rare. So the lady sitting beside me started a conversation with me and again the same question "You don't feel cold??" I said "Yes I do, but I'd rather sacrifice than wearing a jacket or long pants. Never mind its not THAT cold anyway. I am pretty young to be able to stand it." That was when she started calling me "Haha! I know! You are Superman!" and then the whole journey in the street car she was addressing me as Superman!!

Oh, and my friends was not able to control their laughter were laughing out loud as soon as we came out of the street car and hence they started calling me Super Thila!!

And that's the story of how I became Super Thila.

P/S. I do not like cold weather. I don't like. I want the warm sun.

Japaneeeesee

2010-08-28T01:05:00.001+08:00

And now I officially have someone to teach me Japanese! Yay!!

Creativity Juice

2010-08-01T03:18:00.000+08:00

I'm running out of it at a very rapid rate. Will soon deplete. Then comes auto-pilot. And then what?

Should I continue this blog?

2010-07-17T09:06:00.000+08:00

I am starting to wonder if I should continue blogging. Somewhere I just cant my blood mind to work on it. Its kinda sad when I abandon it no? I promised updates even list of things that should have been posted long time ago. Nothing happened eh?

Decide decide. A dilemma. To blog or not to blog? That is the question.

***
Me back in Taiping! Home sweet home. My abandoned house looks like rumah hantu. I shall take some pictures of it. Not much of a change in Taiping which I like but they bloody chopped off the lovely trees by the roadside at the main road connecting Taiping to Kamunting!! Damn it. Now looks botak.

Maxwell hill is still as lovely as ever. I hope they don't build the cable car. They are gonna destroy nature. =(

***
I got sick of kay-hell in one day. YAY!!

"Wonderful" birthday eve

2010-05-13T04:33:00.000+08:00

21st April 2010

Kids we all have been through bad days. Bad as in as bad as you would normally shout in your mind "AHH. Damn it! This is the worst/unluckiest day of my life!" Now this is a story of one of those days. It is not my worst one though.

Woke up with no one beside me. Laptop sent for service yet AGAIN, so I spent the morning in the library going through emails and then took a short swim in Facebook. It was all normal until lunchtime. I skipped breakfast so kinda felt those gastric juices gaining force to invade and make a hole in my stomach.

You see, during any special days e.g birthday, last day of exam, last day of my life, etc etc. I would usually treat myself with a nice and lovely meal that I had never tried before (some turns disastrous =D). I felt a wee bit of happiness come descending by from heaven and each time this happens I'd dump my bicycle and start to walk. I strolled along the streets. Feeling adventurous I hunted for food in a new forest. A forest not taken. Was I familiar with the road? No, not at all.

Left, right, left, right, straight, right, left, reverse a bit, left again (and it went on). After about 30 mins of direction changes I ended up in front of a shop with the name Spicy Curry. The owner was a Pakistani. God oh god, the smell was so good. I ordered lamb curry with briyani rice, some vege and to drink some mango lassi. I gobbled up every single thing served. There was a lot of rice, my stomach has very little space but I stuffed it in! Like compressing gas to liquid! The tummy bloated and I could feel the high pressure inside (those who eat like a pig would know this lovely sensation).

Now now, as I was eating I totally forgot the outside world as I was in the world of food! Thila in Foodland (no outside foots allowed). When I came to my senses it was raining. I did check the weather forecast before I went out. I know it will rain but hey I made my own forecast and my brain said "You idiot those are for morons! Look at the sky its so bright, and sunny! and bright! and even sunnier now!" Now who is the moron? Sigh.

Back to the shop. It was raining, but hey its okay I love rain so I stood up to walk out. Hahhahaahahaha. And then there was trouble! I was a little tooooo full to walk. Painful like no tomorrow. One step and then Oww! another step Oww! Plus hey, I forgot how I ended up at that place. Dragged my stomach all over the place soaking wet and in a bit of cold. I have this pride about directions you know, a principle that I hold on to, "Ask no one for your way back!" No matter what happens, even if its a matter of life and death show no mercy to youself. Find your own bloodey directions! I will tell you one day how this principle came about to my mind. Thanks to one of my scouts expedition. =D

No, I did not die. Too much of food supply to die. Some 45 minutes later I snailed back home. Took a shower and lazied on the bed until the rain stopped. Then I went out again for a photography session, the best time to take pictures of flowers is 20 minutes before sunrise and a few minutes after the rain. I walked to the park about 20 minutes away, partial food was already digested. I felt comfortable walking now.

I took out the camera from the bag found some nice flowers and started my work. I only took about 5 proper shots when the screen showed "memory card full" Dang!! I did not transfer my previous shots the other day since laptop was dead. There goes my day again. Frustrated, I walked back home took my bicycle and headed to my Uni's library. They are open till 12 am so I planned to spend my time there.

All was good until 12 am. I went out from the library to my bicycle. The damn bicycle lock got stuck. The lock said "I'm paying back for leaving me under the rain unattended." It was rusted. I shall blame the weather. =D It's not over yet. I was struggling to open the lock, turning the key all over, pulling the lock, banging the lock with my bare hand (I was imagining as if my hand was a hammer), banging my head on the seat with frustration, not to mention the chilly cold wind. "Freeze!! Put your hand's up and turn yourself around, face up!" My hand was totally frozen and it was getting harder to manouvre it to open the lock. Then I kinda gave out a tiny scream (the ones we do when we want to put some energy into things) and heaved and pulled!! As I was acting and performing my silly act, I saw blue & red lights flashing around me. Then, a policeman came out of his car and shouted at me. "Hey you! Get your hands off that bicycle! I was watching you for some time now."

Oh God. Now what? A policeman comes by shouting at me thinking that I'm stealing my own bike at my birthday? What a day. I gave him my explanation. He still did not believe the bicycle was mine.
"You use only that key and open the lock, no smacking, and stop yanking it. If it opens the bicycle is yours if not sorry sir you'd have to come with me." My my, his voice was really deep and very authoritative. And he looked kinda scary as if he was ready to devour me. Another five minutes later the lock opened. ahhhh. I was relieved. He gave me a weird frowning look, "It's yours alright but I want to remind you that your bike does not have a headlight, and you don't have a helmet. You can get a ticket up to $300 for that." I simply went "Sorry sir, I'll get that done. Am I getting a ticket now?" (I wonder how many times I used this line but no lesson learned. =D) I knew what he was about to say and he did. "It's okay, just make sure you have it all set tomorrow."

And that's the story of how I spent my 20th birthday eve. Oh well, in the end I turned out lucky alright. =D

The update list

2010-04-30T00:38:00.004+08:00

Okay, It has been a long time. I'm back. Quite a number of things to update so I came up with a short list before I post on each one of them individually later on. It comes with a title and a catch phrase.

1. "Wonderful" birthday eve
     - beware of gifts, they come in a package

2. Of gays and lesbians
     - sorry but I'm straight

3. X-Files and my phantom house, 74 Baldwin St
    - the truth is IN here

4. The night I stood still
- an eye cleansing experience

5. Homecoming
- I'm going home, to the place where I belong (Chris Daughtry)

6. Summer, sum up the heat
- It's coming! The sun visits earth.

On an additional note, Jeffrey Khoo Boo Jin!! You wanted an update, here it is. Coming soon in my blog. haha. Probably I will post one per day. =D

007 - Chick Ken

2010-03-16T17:10:00.001+08:00

A chicken crossed the road and met James Bond,

"What's your name?" asked the chicken.

"Bond, James Bond. Whats yours?"

"Ken, Chick Ken."

~Stolen from somewhere in the world wide web.~

It was a "lovely" February

2010-03-07T14:13:00.003+08:00

Fab Feb babies were having Fab Feb fever but hey it was the worst month for me. Even the very beginning of February was a bad omen. 1st of February, I skidded skillfully on the road and fell from the bicycle and stood up in time to see my cool blue shades being crushed by a car. Cool eh?

My month of February was filled with a hell lot of challenges. AND each one of them were plotting something against my summer break!! Jahanam betul. They half succeeded. Sigh.. now I had to postpone me summer plans.. Out of 120 days of summer, I now have 30 days left.. =(

Some real important decisions were made in this month. Some tragic moments too. To my close friends who know what happened, thanks for the advice and thanks for being there when your presence was needed. It helped and meant a lot. =)

The weather hated me too. Winter was at the end but it was more like the beginning. Filled with sudden crazy snowstorms.

There was a HUGE hole in my pocket. No. Not just a HUGE hole. That's an understatement. It was a HUGE blackhole. It sucked and sucked me dollars dry. Textbooks are fuckin' expensive.

Textbook was not the only thing. MY WIFE!! She really sucked me dry I tell ya. (it sounds wrong =O ) Sigh.. she petitioned a temporary divorce with me. Haih.. and the money went to the celaka punya lawyer.

One fine day in my lovely February, I took a bus on a Saturday and I had to buy the ticket from an automated billet machine (ticket counter closed on weekends). I was in a hurry and went to the machine, press press press and I wanted a two way ticket. Usually when I buy at the counter they give me one ticket which can be used for to and fro journey. I thought it should be the same. The price of the ticket on the screen was the same so I checked it and took it out. THEN I saw what was written on the ticket, "This pass can only be used for the date printed." and the date was for only a day meaning i have to use it on that day itself to go and come back which was not my plan. I wanted a return ticket after two days. I had to get a new one. Damn it.

February was also the month when I lost my beloved bag. Geram betul! I was in a food court. Ate my food and I went to throw my leftovers in the bin. I left my bag on the table for that moment. It was the case of "now you see, now you don't" Celaka tul. AHH. I searched for it for a few days!! Nowhere to be found.. My calculator, my pencil box with all kinda stuffs in it, my NOTES, my file folder.. ALL gone.. gone.. gone with the wind... fark it. More dollars out of the pocket.

Haih.. I guess that's about it..

But hey, like someone said "all of February was bad for you except for one day!" hahaha. Yes! I shall add to it another one day! It was for two days remember?! =D

THE END

Stop That Fantasy

2010-01-30T08:28:00.017+08:00

I went to get a haircut about a week ago and the saloonist (a girl) asked me this "Do you by any chance happen to have a girlfriend?" I said, no and I asked why she asked. She told me, "Cause your hair is so rough." And when I got back home I told my friend about it and was telling her how would it be if I had a girlfriend? And then she started this conversation below. Haha. Slam poetry! The purple is the alien friend.

Stop that fantasy

Make it a reality

End your days being lonely

And to find fingers touching you softly

To whom shall I show my insanity?

To the one who you love most tenderly

I know none who would want yours truly

Or should you stop being picky?

I'm not being picked, I'm not choosy

Well, love will find you don't worry

But don't just sit there, get out and be merry

Life is too short to only study

Pick me, pick me the one and only!

I will pick you but also leave you unfaithfully

So, no I won't take you simply

And I would stay forever lonely

You will never know how love can be so tenderly

I have felt it once, I do know really

Is that all you will ever need, seriously?

Come on don't live foolishly

Cherish the past passionately

But seek for a future open mindedly

I'm not saying no, I'm not silly
I would wait for the one dearly
But I do know it would take an eternity
For that one to come mysteriously

Even if for eternity, it will come hopefully

Well, I guess there is no hurry

But why not if it can make you happy

It's never too late nor early

I am in no hurry
Doesn't matter sad or happy
It is just something that will never be

Or is this a sign of gay maybe?

I simply love the ending. And no. I'm not gay. =P

A walk in the rain

2010-01-25T05:50:00.001+08:00

Had a long bath again. A sign of a disturbed mind. It was raining and it was warmer than usual today. I decided to take a walk outside. Headed out to get some french vanilla coffee mix. Instead of cycling, I walked. Raindrops; remedy for tangled consciousness.

Somehow, the rain would be present during gloomy days as if to help me cleanse my thoughts. Nature is powerful. Feeling the touch of cold drops on my skin I walked and watched the liveliness along the streets. The place I was walking to had this indie sensation. I saw street performers. A man singing country songs, playing a guitar. It was good and filled the empty mind. Music is medicine. Songs answer a call for cure.

Then I saw a group of guys with that hardy appearance, addicts. I stared, my mind was just seeking for something and it just wandered. One of them saw me staring and called out, "Ganja?" My mind was simply empty at that time around. I smiled and walked along. Then I stopped and wondered, why did I smile? Was that the right expression? I don't know. It was all tangled. Confusion.

I got what I wanted to buy and I felt like eating something. Got myself an egg tart from a bakery along the way. Enjoyed eating it under the rain. I walked home.

Square Root of Three

2010-01-22T09:57:00.002+08:00

This is a poem written by David Feinberg. Its in the movie Harold and Kumar Escape From Guantanamo Bay.
I can't stop listening to it. Its beautifully written. Love it!

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly come waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

Lake view

2010-01-12T08:20:00.001+08:00

That's my new header! Lake Garden in Taiping. One beautiful spot. Love it, missing it. It reminds me of hope.

Nice?

Homemade ice mango tea

2010-01-05T17:24:00.003+08:00

Is it a good start? Cause today I am feeling positive all of a sudden. Now now, how long has it been since I last felt this way? Hmm.. I wonder if my homemade ice mango tea has anything to do with this. Aha, aha. Some funny potion in the drink

***
One hour a day. One hour a day. One hour a day. Got to do this. Pen it down my friend! Pen it down. No. Pencil it down. I prefer pencils. If I can make it happen, then I will be falling in love with myself again. Haha. Yes, I am not making any sense.

***
On a journey to a place where I will find peace again. Calmness comes from within and without.

***
Ice mango tea anyone? Will add a twist of lemon for ya!

A story of an elephant and its rider

2010-01-01T12:53:00.004+08:00

It's the last few moments of the year 2009 and most people would be blogging about what had happened throughout the year. But I'm gonna tell you a story.

During my Christmas break, I spent my time reading this book "The Happiness Hypothesis" by Jonathan Haidt. Haidt made an analogy on how to relate our subconscious mind and our conscious mind which he said is the elephant and the rider respectively.The rein used by the rider to control the elephant is the only mean of communication between them. The rider is smart and he is able to communicate with other riders and he gains knowledge. The elephant is helpless and moves based on mere instincts. Then again, the rider has a very limited role. He makes choices. He chooses which path the elephant should go to. Left, right, straight or back. The rest of the work is done by the elephant.

What if the rider loses his rein? Or if he is not able to control his own elephant? The elephant would not go on a rage. It would simply follow whatever it thinks is right, whatever that it used to do daily just like a computer program. As I was reading the book, I wondered how did my journey with my elephant was for the past few years. I believed that the conscious rider is our soul. Below is my story.

In my past, I was a very skilled rider. The choices that I made most of the time lead my elephant and I to victory. I knew I had tamed my elephant well enough that I threw the reins away. I understood my elephant and he me. I would talk to him and he would understand what I say. This harmonious relationship between both of us nurtured creativity and the ability to grasp knowledge around us with arms wide open.

I found that it was not only my elephant that I was able to tame. I somehow believed that I could understand other rider's elephants too. I was able to make friends with any rider that I met. And some very intimately. I was happy.

One day, there was a war. I tried to escape but to no avail and my elephant was afraid. From what I could remember, there was a huge explosion in front of me and the world went blank for a few days. When I finally opened my eyes. I could not feel my hands, I could not feel my legs and I could not feel that cool breeze that I once loved so much. The touch of raindrops on my skin was no longer there.

I was paralysed. I could only see and talk. I looked at my elephant. He is now blind. He is now mute. He could no longer hear my words. The harmonious bond between us was destroyed. He could not grow any wiser without my advice. There was no more knowledge that I could instill in him. He now makes his choices without a sense of direction and without my command. Alone and helpless. He thought that I left and abandoned him for good.

I was not there when he needed me. And so, we moved on. We both exist side by side without a relation. How sad, I could not go to him and give him cookies for a festival or sweets when he had done a good work. I felt lost. We together are lost. Till now.

I hope one day, we would accidentally bump into a doctor. And hope that the doctor would cure my paralysis and my elephant's sight and hearing. Until then, my life and my journey would be on a defected autopilot. I could no longer steer.

Off to Montreal

2009-12-21T22:51:00.001+08:00

Haha. At last a vacation. In 2 hours will be heading to Montreal. Going with a new found partner by book! "The Happiness Hypothesis" by Jonathan Haidt. Good book, good company.

Will be back in about 6 days time. =)

Thou shall hate winter

2009-12-10T18:46:00.001+08:00

This is about what happened yesterday. I had my chemistry at 8am in the morning. The night before it was snowing and accumulated about 3 inches thick. I was up awake and studying for the exam and it was about 7am the snow shower stopped and changed into a heavy rain with freaking strong winds!!

Snow + Rain = Very very very messy slushy slushy environment outside. Gosh. And I had to cycle to my exam hall which was at Metro Toronto Convention Centre, so I had to cycle longer than usual to get there. I was too busy studying that I forgot to check the time. it was about 7.20am and well it wasn't too late but I need to find the exact location of my exam hall inside the building so I rushed and I was lazy to take out my winter shoes. I thought it wont be so bad since the snow was not so heavy. Big mistake.

I pakai la that normal sneakers from Malaysia yang tak kalis air. Hopped on my bicycle and started pushing my way through the slushy road. Fuh. It was so slippery!! And the wind blowing like want to send me off flying! Lucky at least I was wearing proper jackets, yeah jackets. One not enough. My body did not get wet but my pants were soaking wet!! The shoes and my feet!! It felt like being placed inside the freezer. The toes paraylsed.

Oh yeah, me cycling gloves. Not waterproof so... Frozen fingers as well. I did my 3 hour exam with that icefilled shoes. Ooo. Brr. Chemistry was a hell lot tough. Monstrous!! 50 objectives in 3 hours. I was wondering why are they giving so much time for 50 objective questions? See the paper only know. Dropped dead halfway. there were about 9-10 questions that even if you get to open a textbook, you wont be able to get them right. Complex applications. I was sitting at the front most table and my chemistry professor was right in front of me staring all the time. All that I was thinking was "damn! If I could only read your mind!!"

Done with exams had to go through the rain and slushy sloshy road again. The wind was even stronger this time. Adui. It was like a battlefield! I was nearly home, when I got down from my bicycle and wanted to cross the road and so I psuhed the bike. There was this huge pile of snow by the pavement. Considering myself already in a terrible mess, I wanted to mess things up. So I went around kicking snow! Nice! Until my foot hit a hard hard object. OUCH!! Damn. It was a big rock covered by snow. Manalah saya tau. =(

Reached home. Straight into the bath!! Ahh... hot water, hot water!! I was under the shower for about 30 mins. Defrozing my toes and my fingers. Its a weird feeling when frozen body parts get sudden hot water treatment. Like as if you cant feel anything but there is something. Ahh. I don't wanna go out anymore. But my food stock not gonna last for another day. Arghh. Low temperature means high food consumption. I had been eating non-stop.

That's it. I need to sleep. My sleeping pattern is really out of order. High entropy change in body metabolism rate. (entropy = "degree of chaos")

I need my eternal summer. Any votes?

Connecting-Connecting-Connected-Online

2009-12-06T06:28:00.002+08:00

This is not the right time to be blogging but yeah I am. I dumped my laptop on Nov 30th so that I could (I thought) actually concentrate on my finals which is gonna start on Dec 7. Things didn't turn out fine. Haha. So stupid of me! My Economics, Chemistry and Physics notes are in my laptop and how to study without it? Plus past year papers are also online which I did not print out before. =(

Let that be it. Another different agenda. These, 5 days being disconnected I realized that my productivity level is far far below average. E.g. I could normally finish 3 topic sections of calculus + exercises in one hour and a half with my laptop by my side and without, I could only finish 2 topic sections in that same time frame minus exercises!! Sigh..

My original hypothesis was, "If I could avoid from being distracted by my laptop, I could use that time to study." Hell, my hypothesis is far from true. The conclusion after the experiment is "Time is divided for studies and for laptop distractions with a marginal ratio of 2 : 4 and productivity level is average." I know this is not gonna explain anything. Its kinda weird and confusing. Below would be some scenarios that I went through :

Without Laptop

1. Everyday, I am sleeping for 12 - 13 hours!! Damn it. Too much of sleep makes me lazy.

2. I started skipping my physical exercises and use that time to sleep instead.

3. My sleeping function is going haywire. It was suppose to be Inverse Sleep Function (nocturnal) but now it is back to Normal Sleep Function.

4. Related to 3. Since now I sleep at night instead of day, I had to study during the day instead of night. My productivity level during daytime = very very low and slow.

5. When I get bored studying which happens occasionally and periodically (every 15 - 20 mins), I stand up from my chair and start reading novels or go to the window and stare at the road, walk around my room aimlessly, going out of the house and to the bakery to get my stomach filled up every now and then, and also a very high tendency to jump on the bed and hide myself under the blanket. (all these activities are eating my time).

6. It is TOO QUIET!! Haha. Had to complain on that. =P

With Laptop

1. I sleep a good 4 - 6 hours. This regulates my normal body metabolism rate and keeps me active and I have more time in a day to spend.

2. I exercise regularly although I don't know what this has to do with the absence and presence of laptop, it simply happens to be the case.

3. I sleep when I am non-productive and am wide awake when its the best time for me to study; night! To relate this to why the sleeping pattern changes is because of MSN buddies. I wait to chat with my friend back in Malaysia. This keeps me up awake at night. =)

4. When I have the laptop and if I get bored studying, I usually chat, go check facebook, read news or listen to music. All these are done with me not moving from the table. Higher possibility that I will continue with my studies.

5. Music! Keeps me alive. Haha. Not so quiet is better.

Okay. That's it. My laptop is actually helping my studies. Haha. Just need to cut down the distractions a Little bit. =D

Offline

2009-11-30T15:34:00.000+08:00

Okay. Since my final exams are coming up in about 7 days, I decided to dump my laptop. The main distraction, no the ONLY distraction that keeps me away from my textbooks. I find it that dumping it is the only possible solution. Let it hibernate without electricity in my wardrobe for some time. Haha. Why in the wardrobe? Saja saja. It might wanna try some of my clothes.

**

Life is odd is it not?

I Deem

2009-11-22T11:04:00.000+08:00

I deem for a warm hug

To cuddle with you under your arms

My heart sedated with drug

Your hazel eyes a virtue that charms

I deem for serendipity

A moment to ponder upon the deck

A scarlet silk, smooth around your neck

Dreaming of you, an image so pretty

I fell…

I’m falling for you

You, that wishing star

Shining through my untreated scar

I’m keen in wait to hear from you…

I deem for a dream

Of you and me, forever to be

The colours as light as cream

Are now fading in a pool of stream

I deem for your love

To feel and to heal

The myth is surreal

And I deem…

Of you for real…

Taiping People!

2009-11-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

To all my readers from Taiping, try to guess where I took this pic! We have a tunnel in Taiping.

Anyway, the pic I'm talking about is my new header picture. =)

Reflections

2009-11-06T07:31:00.004+08:00

This was my first poem that I made for someone else...

Glimmers in the midst of the night

Your shadow; dim

Between the ripples of the lake

Amongst the moon and the stars

You reflect a thousand smile

I see you

In emerald green

Surpassing the beauty of nature

Your inspiration, care and love

Summoned this feeble creature

To face life and reality

And have I taken the oath

To be with you forever

Living Life

2009-10-30T12:44:00.003+08:00

When one has a friend
He has the world

When one has a wife
He has all the love he needs

When one has a pet
He’s never lonely

When one has an enemy
He’s not always happy

When one has a rival
He puts up his best

When one believes in fate
He no longer wishes

When one chooses his path
He is never certain

When one has faith
He feels strong

When one gives
He cares

When one loves
He deserves

When one believes he would
He will

When one suffers
He is alive

When one fails
He succeeds

When one tries
He never cries

When one sees
He believes

When one regrets
He learns

When one thinks
He controls

When one is unaware
He hits bottom

When one is alert
He bounces sky-high

When one cries
He is to blame

When one smiles
He makes a difference…

If one’s conscious life is too rigid, too regimented, then the surface may crack at times, and we are unprepared for the strange emotions or sensations we experience. Free yourself from your binding thoughts and let your instincts lead the way to joy. Face life with a fiery temperament and you’ll be gifted with fortune. It comes only to those who dares to seek. Life's like that.

Crystal Water

2009-10-22T01:21:00.006+08:00

"You are the best among the best. Wait for me and I'll be back. Just one year. I'll give you a call every night before I go to bed okay?"

I still hear the echoes of his words in my ears. Those voices in my head. I wanted to tell him that I was no longer the wife he had expected me to be. He was away for a year and things have changed far more towards desperation than he could ever expect. I have sinned badly and I regret badly. There is no excuse. Some mistakes are irredeemable. One would not know or understand the true pain of regret unless by experience.

Just a year after our marriage, Dylan had to go for a research expedition along the coast of the Mediterranean Sea. He is a marine biologist and he spends most of his time on Crystal Water the ship he works on. I was left behind alone. It was my own choice. I did not want to lose my own job. I need a career to live on with. And that was that.

Six months passed, and he never failed to call me every night. Just as he promised. Dylan is always sweet and full of enthusiasm and when it comes to me, he'd always go "If there is a moment when I fail to move, it is when I look into your eyes." I missed him terribly. When he was away, my colleague Ryan would drop by my house to see if things are okay with me. He was a close friend of mine and he was an asset to me especially when Dylan was not around. We went out for dinner occasionally and we had light drinks over the weekend to release stress from work. Things worked out pretty well for me but it did not end well.

It was raining heavily that night. Autumn rain felt cold. Ryan and me were having our normal Saturday night out, drinking. We had a bottle of Chateau Fussignac Bourdeaux. Dark ruby coloured wine. Fruity but seductive. It felt nice when it flowed pass my palate. We talked for a while and enjoyed listening to some fine Mozart's. By the time we decided to leave, it was late and the downpour seemed to be heavier. Ryan took the wheels and slowly we to headed to my house. Upon reaching, I invited Ryan to stay at mine instead of traveling far North to his house. It was dangerous. The road to his grange was not well lit and with the storm coming in, it would have been difficult for him. So, it was decided that Ryan stays.

The guest room was for Ryan for the night and I cleaned it up a little. I gave him dry clothes to change. It was Dylan's. It fitted perfectly. We were not feeling sleepy and sat down on the sofa for a movie. After some time looking for a suitable movie, Ryan chose to watch P.S. I Love You. I bought that one a few months ago but never watched. I was scared I would fall to tears as I was truly missing Dylan and a romantic movie like that would not help. Then again, I did not say no to Ryan's choice and we watched together. As the plot developed, my heart grew softer and softer to fragile. I didn't speak one word to Ryan. I was unaware that I had my head on his lap. Cold crystals were rolling down my cheeks.

I was cold, I felt weak and still felt the effect of alcohol in me. The movie ended. I did not budge from Ryan's lap. He thought I was asleep and carried me to my bed. He was about to go, when I stopped him and asked him to lay down by my side. I know deep inside, Ryan had a heart for me a long time before I was married to Dylan. He hesitated but I insisted. The temptation I felt was hard to resist, emptiness, loneliness and I felt as if I had to fill it with something; someone. We made love in that chilly night. Hoping that the autumn rain would wash away the sin we were about to commit. Little did I know, it was temporary. Regret was inevitable.

It was too late. I had enjoyed every bit of the night and my flesh felt warm after a long time. The sun was up and I woke up and found myself naked with Ryan by my side. Damn. Its not Dylan, what have I done? Remorse jolted up to my brain and anguish was hard to restrain. I felt hard to swallow. I went for the shower and took a long bath. Water seemed to heal temporarily. I stepped out and dressed up. Ryan was up as well. His eyes strayed and locked when it met mine. I looked away, ashamed. He changed into his wet clothes and without uttering a word slipped out of my house. I know he was hit hard.

A few minutes after, my phone alarm went on. It was beside my bed and I reached for it. When I saw the screen, my heart shattered to pieces. Three calls unattended and it was Dylan. He had called me last night and I was unaware. He had left a voicemail.

"Sarah, I know you are asleep. Sorry I was late to call today, I forgot the timezone difference! Haha. Anyway, today I had fun playing with some dolphins around the cove. They looked sweet just like you, sweetheart. I took some pics and I emailed them to you. Check your inbox first thing in the morning okay! Love ya."

The pain was rushing in as I looked through the pictures Dylan had sent me. Each had a picture of him with a wide smile. And his cool blue eyes were looking at me. He trusted me. Damn it. Guilt was hard to take. I felt lost, my appetite was down and I skipped work for days then to weeks. Both Dylan and Ryan called me everyday but I answered none. I could not talk. Not a word more from my mouth. Then, one evening, Ryan dropped by to check me out. I refused to talk or listen. I could not lay my eyes on him. He took a pencil and wrote something on a paper and left it on my kitchen table and left.

I raced to the kitchen to read what he wrote. I was deprived off conversation and I needed one desperately even if it means in a written form. He had left something else in addition to the letter he wrote. I took no notice of the small envelope beside and started to read the letter first.

"Sarah, I know its hard to take. I am worried about you. You have been missing for weeks and you locked yourself in that house of yours. It was my mistake as well. I'm sorry. You need to go to Dylan. He's probably worried sick about you. I know you would have ignored his calls as well just like how you ignored mine. Go to Dylan, he would not be angry with you. Tell him the truth face to face. It would be the best thing for you to do. Please, I beg you. I got to know from a friend that Crystal Water is docked at Gibraltar. I booked a flight for you tomorrow morning. Decide wisely and call me when you are ready and I'll fetch you to the airport. I'm sorry again, Sarah."

Shocked I was. In the small envelope was a ticket for me to Gibraltar. He was serious and I'm undecided. Thoughts ran through my nerves and to my brain. Will Dylan forgive me? Will he accept me again? I don't know what I'll do when I meet him. I would faint. Do I have any other choices? No. None. I'm ready to take whatever it takes to meet him again. I love him. It doesn't matter if he hates me after but I need to tell him the truth.

And so, I boarded the flight and thanked Ryan for his concern. He really loved me. It was a long long flight and I spent most of my time thinking and wondering what will happen to me. It felt like months have passed when I reached Gibraltar. I had a cab to send me to the port. I walked to the docking area and I spotted Crystal Water from far. Dylan and I had cruised in it together once for our honeymoon. He insisted in showing me his place of work. That time it was different, all I felt was happiness but here I am once again in front of Crystal Water feeling so hopeless.

I stepped in with permission from a crew member who guarded the entrance. I saw him once I was on the deck. He was facing the sea. The wind was strong and blew his hair. I felt difficult to take another step forward. I'm here at last. In front of me is Dylan, my handsome Dylan. I stood there watching him in silence. I took a few short steps towards him and he senses someone was around. He looked back and I saw that mixed expression in his face. Happiness, loneliness and emptiness altogether.

I embraced him tightly. As tight as I can. Letting go of all the energy that was left in me. Idid not utter a word when he started questioning why I was there, how I came and all that sort of questions. I answered none. I just wanted every empty space in me to be filled by his warmth. I was crying and I opened my mouth to talk.

"Dylan, I'm sorry. I made a mistake. I'm here to tell you a truth. I could not keep it any longer."

"I'm listening dear, I'm listening.. be calm."

"I.. I.. I slept with another man Dylan. I.."

I could not finish my words and ended it just there. Dylan was confused and worried. He took me to his room and asked me to rest on the bed. He gave me a glass of water.

"Sarah, get hold of yourself and tell me what happened slowly. You don't have to rush."

I cuddled under him and closed my eyes and narrated for him the incident that night. I looked at him when I was finished. His eyes. They had tears in them. I had never seen that glow before. But he managed to control himself and the tears did not fall. I thought he would leave me for good. Instead, there he was by my side. He held me close to him and whispered to me.

"Its okay sweetheart. I forgive you. I'm happy you told me the truth. I know you love me. I won't leave you alone again. Never. I promise. I love you Sarah."

He planted a gentle kiss on my forehead and caressed my cheek. And I heard voices deep in my head. My conscience. It said :

"Desperation leads to desperate consequences."

Mistakes irredeemable

2009-10-19T13:46:00.003+08:00

I had a long bath today
Water seems to heal things temporarily
But the air is still foul.

Genesis of Light

2009-10-12T14:15:00.002+08:00

A chosen star who failed to shine
Once given, my heart is no longer mine

A new star was born tonight
With charming hues of red and light

Look back into the mirror I gave
The soul inside is sound and save

I wish you freedom
A star destined for stardom
Winds be your guide build your kingdom

It matters to me.
Today the voice was born.
My starlight.

I realized. Hoping too much, will not get you anywhere. Hope has its limit. Sometimes, it has the power to bring you down. Time and time again, the choice remained but one. A road taken and yet no other fork met. The choice was mine and so I'm walking it now. With contentment, without regret.

Time heals a wound but it can never take away what's engraved in the heart.

Choice

2009-10-11T14:16:00.002+08:00

Many had wondered and asked me why. They still do.

Why of all universities did I choose Ryerson

Never heard of it.

Why didn't choose University of Toronto or McGill?

Ryerson is not even in the list of the top 200.

Hate it when it happens. I have my own reasons. I wanted to get out of my comfort zone; not around my friends that is. To achieve that, I don't care which Uni I choose because isolation was my first priority.

Start all afresh and you learn even more. To me, where you get the cert is not important. What matters is how you bring yourself up as you grow, character-wise.

Ku tak tahu nak letak tajuk apa

2009-10-05T12:28:00.004+08:00

Ini adalah syair balas kawanku.

Embun mengenang di pagi hari,
Dilindungi kehijauan penuh seri,
Jangan teringat bab hidupmu yang ngeri,
Bersamamu ingin ku menari.

Kau bagiku, kawan sejati,
Gelak ketawamu amat bererti,
Ku pasti,
Hilang kepiluan yang terpahat di hati.

Kasih itu bagaikan harta,
Nilai kebahagiaan tidak terkata,
Hidup ini permainan yang nyata,
Menang, kalah bergantung kepada kita.

Jika kau inginkan bunga penyeri,
Ku dapatkan mawar malar sehari,
Mawar merah kusisip di jari,
Moga kau simpan buat memori.

Kepedasan hidup sukar ditelan,
Jalan yang mudah menjadi pilihan,
Jangan kau hidup terus berangan,
Bangun dan lari merentasi halangan.

Kesungguhan mu buat ku terharu,
Mengejar di pelosok penjuru,
Tabahkan hati rindu berlalu,
Fikirkan boleh dan terbang dahulu.

Pengalaman hidup tak mungkin lupus,
Wujud ia hingga nyawamu pupus.

Hidup ini nikmat tidak terharga,
Kasihi ia, semoga kau ke syurga.

Apa macam? Boleh tak?

Critical Mass Cycling Journey

2009-09-13T03:57:00.002+08:00

I'm exhausted. 1.13 am now. Still not sleepy but hell yeah, i'm TIRED!! I need sleeping pills. But hey, so many people requested me to upload pics of Canada. I just don't know why but I always feel lazy to do that. JUST that. I will try my best. Actually I did better ok!! At the bottom you will see video clips Le Tour de Canada!! Hehe.

Ok, since I joined the Cycling Club in Ryerson, my friend Jacob asked me to join him for a bike ride. Critical Mass is held once a month. 2nd Saturday of each month. (not sure if the details are exact or not) I had to go to Eglinton and Yonge intersection to meet the convoy.

And so, I pulled out my cycling map and checked the spot! Looked very near to me. Forgot to check the damn km ratio. I cycled and cycled for such a long time to reach the meet up point. I'm ALWAYS on time and usually early for any appointments. That's a policy that I seldom fail to follow. My pride. Since I didn't know the exact distance and I still didn't reach the place, I took out the map again and studied. Damn. I just made halfway there. and I had only 15 mins left.

That's it. Speeded like hell and managed to be there on time. Panting like a dog that ran around chasing after its tail for god knows how long. Lucky I had Fisherman's Friend (cherry flavour ~ funny why I'm starting to choose stuff with cherry flavour in it. I know someONE who will laugh at this.) to raise my glucose level up.

I met a few more cyclists there and we chatted a while before we took off. Not many turned up cause there was this Toronto International Film Festival thingy going on everyday for a week. So, the crowd went there. They had some Zombie Walk today. Haha. The locals dressed up in zombie outfits and all in Dundas Square. We were left with 5 people. Actually had 7 but 2 larikan diri after some kilometres.

Gosh. We cycled so far! Dont know the exact distance though, but it took 6 hours in total for me to go and come back to my house. Nearly the end of the journey I started to feel cramps. My bicycle had big tyres (normal ones) which is good for long distance. Didn't have time to change them. So, I had to exert extra energy because of more frictional force and it slows down real fast and I have to pedal and pedal!

I miss my lovely old bike. And my dad's bicycle shop! Man! How much I miss it now! I could have modified and improvised that 2nd hand bike into a high class road cruiser!! Stupid tyres plus the fact that I have not cycled for a pretty long time since I joined college back in Malaysia. around 1 year. I cycled but very seldom and extremely short distance. So..... my freaky muscles dah tak boleh pakai. I do go out jogging often but jogging involves "gastrocnemius and soleus" a.k.a calf muscles. However, for cycling I don't need them that much!! I need the hamstring group.

Lucky just lucky I made it. I still had stamina with me. It helped. Phew.. Ok cut the crap!! Membebel je saya. Look at the clips below. I did took the clips as I cycled. Don't play play. (wasn't easy ~ kids don't do this at home ok) I dropped my camera once as I ran into a pothole and the camera slipped off and fell!! I thought it was gone for good. But hey miraculously IT survived!! The odd thing is, there was not even a scratch even though it fell really badly and on top of tar road. (must have my blood running it kot ~ I'm always save)

Haha. The videos very bad quality. Shaking here and there. (blame the cameraman)

Here are some pics as well. Its in facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2032558&id=1538372116&l=cde88fa573

Acknowledgement

2009-09-12T12:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. This post is for my new friend. Haha. Not exactly new. She commented on me using too many emoticons so to acknowledge her, I'll start using extremely few numbers of them.

Hope you read this Miss. Lol.

Huge airport, hostile creature

2009-08-28T09:05:00.004+08:00

I'm at Dubai airport now. 0914 Malaysian time and 0514 local time.

29 of us here. We were at the transfer desk waiting for our transit check. The girls were busy taking pictures. Out of excitement.

Then, there came this freaky lady walking fast and halted at the girls (she was wearing some kinda UEA airport service officer uniform).

"Give me your camera. Come here, come here. Your camera." (I escorted the girl in case she needs help with two more friends)

The poor girl got shocked. Scared cause the freaky lady called out and frowned at her as if she had committed a murder.

The FL (freaky lady^abbreviations are life savers; please ignore note) then freakishly tried to turn on the camera and check the pics taken. Well, whaddaya know? She gave up at first try.

"Open it, show me what pics you took."

The girl showed. There was only 2 pics (if I'm not mistaken) of the girl and her friend with the airport as the background. FL said :

"This is the only thing you took? You, let me see your pics" (turning to the girl's friend who was a girl as well).

Same kinda pics and then FL gave up and simply walked away. When asked what was wrong and what she was looking for, she said nothing and remained dumb as she naturally is.

Stupid. Such commotion for nothing? Everyone were looking at her. Poor girl. My guess was FL had some sort of excessive PMS thingy today. She was scared we might accidentally take her pic wetting in her pants. Second hand sanitary pad. Cheap stuff ye know?

Or was she having sex at the back of the counter? And was shocked to see flashing lights at her? I don't wanna imagine her nude. No point taking her pic in nude.

I actually wanted to go to FL and say that she was rude just like the McD guy (she didn't even say please! or explain why she was acting in such a way. Lol). But this time I pulled back. This is not my country. Better not mess with them. Then if they come after me with Arabian Knights, I'd be dead.

Moral of the story : Simply don't be a FL. Bad first impression for your country.

(anyway, Dubai airport is huge and reputable although you see a lot of sleepy heads down on the ground, sleeping with style)

Crazy guy at McD

2009-07-05T23:07:00.005+08:00

Went to have lunch in McD today during my break. I stepped in and purchased my Mc Value Lunch. Was looking for the straw. Was not in its usual place. Searched, couldn't find, asked and found it resting beside the sauce table.

I was just about to take my seat when a man passed by walking furiously. The idiot nearly tipped off my drink!! That done, he was shouting. "Where is the straw?! Where is the straw?! You people don't know the right place to place it ah?!" He didn't give a second for the waiter to reply. He rushed to the cashier counter and shouted for straw again. The supervisor who happened to be there told him that it was near the sauce table. The bastard tak puas hati then scowled at him. "You supervisor kan? Don't you know where to place the straw?! I'm late for a meeting because of you!" (he made me real SICK) Then he turned around right to my table and BANG.

Fuck. This time he really spilled my drink and it was all over my shirt. Shit. I need to go to work. Pissed off, I turned at him. Polite at first (obviously he was elder than me but I wanted a quarrel).

"Excuse me sir, you just rammed into my table and spilled my drink all over."

"I was just looking for a straw and your table blocked my way."

"Bravo! That's a very solid reason hermit man (he was rather short. at least a bit shorter than I am), I admit. "

"What are you getting at? Don't you have menace talking to someone elder than you like that?"

"Practice what you preach. I might be younger than you but I guess by the way you act I can tell that you are no wiser than a 5 year old kid."

By this time everyone was looking at me and him.

Then he started shouting again like a raging mad bull. "What are you all looking at?"

I was half chuckling and addressed to him, "Sir, they have eyes sir. And so they look. You are looking at them as well sir, should they shout at you back?"

People started to laugh. And I felt power. LOL. Serves him right. Acting like a moron. From the looks, he looks like a pretty wealthy bussinessman or something. The hell I care. He need to be tamed. Unfortunately, by me.

Anyway, back to our hermit man. He was pissed off now. He came close to me and shouted,

"Watch your mouth!! You don't know who I am."

I entertained him coldly. Taking a bite of my Mc Chicken. I replied,

"Yeah right, as if I want to know who you are. You're a waste of time."

That rubbed him in. He was really fucked up. The next thing I know his hands were on my shirt. I remained calm, reached for my cup and sipped the remaining drink.

"Yes sir? Would you like to replace my shirt for a new one? You ruined it."

He was furious that I was acting so so calm. Can see that from his face. Vibrating with such anger that he could beat a rattle snake in battle.

He was ready to give me a punch when a man sitting beside my table held his hand hard.

"Back off before I call the police. You've made enough mess already. He's younger than you but he got brains and you don't."

Humiliated, he left his food and walked out of the restaurant.

The man who helped me patted me on the back.

"You're pretty good at dealing with people like him. He deserves it. I enjoyed the comedy relief for my lunch." He laughed and took his seat.

Everyone smiled at me and some gave me thumbs up. LOL. I welcomed the spotlight.

Lost Update

2009-07-05T22:59:00.001+08:00

Oh my god.. Such a damn long time I didn't update my bloody blog. At last now I have time! Yeah! Have lots to crap.

It's Over

2009-06-03T03:57:00.002+08:00

ICPU is over at last. Don't know whether to feel happy or sad. Freakin' bored. I simply hate it when I got nothing to do or when there's too many things to do that I don't know which one to choose.

Its decided. I'm gonna start leeching. Download and load my laptop as much as I can. Thanks to rapidshare, depositfiles, hotfile, megaupload, easyshare and quebfiles. Now, I don't have to pay for anything.

Rube Goldberg Project!! A.K.A. "Quackland Golf Resort"

2009-05-17T10:20:00.013+08:00

Yeah!!! At last!! It worked!! We had a fluctuating success rate but it worked just perfectly at the end of the day!

Let 0 = failure and 1 = success

And this were the statistics.

01010101

Haha! Lucky the last one was a GREAT SUCCESS!! Lol. It was worth it. We used up so much of our time on the project. Sleepless nights. Gosh. Popped so many balloons! (which was fun) and yeah.. fell into deep frustration when it failed for a number of times.. Haha.

Anyway, take a look at the video!! (sorry the video is not upright)

More pictures here!! Take a look! But before that, something about Quackland. Our end task was suppose to be lighting up a bulb. It was deprived of some deco and I happened to have a rubber ducky with me.

So, the rubber ducky ended up being lighted up! Lol. Its kinda cute anyway. And yeah, me and my friend Alfie stayed wake throughout the night and at around 500 a.m. we were discussing for a project name and in the end we decided the ducky as our mascot! That is how we got the name "Quackland Golf Resort." Hehe..

Woohoo!! That's our ducky!!

If you take a closer look, the long road is labelled Quackland Highway. Lol. This is the result of not getting enough sleep.

Credits to Shang Khoon for the "potential energy car." Hehe..

One of our best steps!! The blue liquid is "Formula X." According to Alfie, it is edible but not tasty.

We scribbled everywhere! Hehe.. I like this magnet powered step as well..

Wanna party?? Let's pop the balloon!! Hehe.. Many people got scared when the balloon popped suddenly. Lol.

Whole view

Top View

Let's Meet In Heaven

2009-05-13T11:31:00.003+08:00

This is an unexpected poem! It doesn't have a meaning. Really. Made it for the sake of supporting my friend's thesis. Hehe..

Let's Meet in Heaven

Fragments of our missing dream
Pieces from here and there
Fall in place along the line
Disappearing between you and me
Life seems so stagnant

People contain themselves in a prison of mind
Giving it a name; culture they say
Born in forms
Of indestructable laws and norms
Not letting it to adapt to change
My desires and needs nailed
I tried but failed

Don't they understand?
That my love has no boundaries
Race is not a matter
What more can I do?
I'm shattered into pieces
My love was tender and true
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

I'm pushed to my limits
I'm suffocating
I can't forget and let it go
If you love me, please dont do what I did
My last words to you my love..
I love you...
I'll meet you in heaven
Goodbye...

Busy!!

2009-05-04T03:42:00.002+08:00

Sigh.. Really don't have much time to spend my time here blogging.. Exam is in 3 weeks time.. And final projects are reaching the deadlines..

So much work... So little time...

Sorry, have to end the post with this emoticon...

Trouble with words?

2009-04-18T22:14:00.009+08:00

Here's a whole new vocabulary for ye! Just for laugh gags.

Assmosis - The process by which some people seem to absorb success and advancement by kissing up to the boss rather than working hard.

Beelzebug - Devil in the form of mosquito, that gets into your bedroom at three in the morning and cannot be cast out.

Blamestorming - Sitting down in a group, discussing why a deadline was missed or a project failed and who was responsible for it.

Bozone - The substance surrounding stupid people that stops bright ideas from penetrating. The bozone layer unfortunately, shows little sign of breaking down in the near future.

Bungee Jumping - Suicide with string attached.

Cannibal - Someone who is fed up with people.

Chickens - The only creature that you eat before they are born and after they are dead.

Divorce - The future tense of the word marriage.

Giraffiti - Vandalism, spray-painted very, very high.

Monogamy - A boring game for adults. Also refer to the disease one-gina.

I'm into penguins!!

2009-04-13T23:42:00.013+08:00

Haha! All of a sudden I fell head over heels in love with penguins. They are my official mascots now! They are very far relatives of ducks.

Take a look at this article I found!!

MORGANTOWN, WV (IWR News Satire) - President George W. Bush was attacked by flock of angry penguins following his Independence Day message on climate change while visiting West Virginia University in Morgantown, West Virginia, July 4, 2005.

The penguins, which were part of a promotion for the March of the Penguins movie, attacked Bush after he said that he would not support a Kyoto style agreement on global warming.

Although Mr. Bush acknowledged that some of global warming was caused by human activity, he blamed the majority of the problem on "smelly, dirty animals like penguins, sea otters and capybaras".

Mr. Bush, who is known to have a severe bird phobia since childhood, fainted and then regained consciousness later after being treated with smelling salts.

Bush was then carried off on stretcher while sobbing and asking for his teddy bear until he was sped off in an ambulance.

CARTOONS UNANIMATED!!

Poke the Penguin - Poke the penguin at your own risk

Rico, Private, Kowalski, Skipper and Skipper's Girl

NOW WATCH THIS AND ENJOY!!

The Underwear

2009-04-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

What's so special about underwears? Well, let me tell you. Today I found out that mine can fly...

It was hanging right by the window and when I went to it, it jumped off from the 19th-storey. And it escaped the jump unharmed.

It was a red underwear. My favourite colour.

Happy!!! I'm SO Happy!!

2009-04-10T02:43:00.002+08:00

Hahaha!! Such a long long time!! It has been such a long long time since I last felt such happiness! I had longed for this so much more than anything else... I had once sacrificed my identity to save myself from a dreadful situation. I paid the price worthy of myself to save my life. I succeeded, though I lost the "me" in me.

From the tiny sparks that I saw today, it enlightened me and brought my flame back. Though not wholesome, a pinch of it would do for me. I'm very very happy!!! Haha! I know its a very confusing post to many but its relevant to me!

Hamlet Assignment!

2009-04-07T18:10:00.013+08:00

We did this funny assignment last week that we had to put on props and costumes for the play Hamlet by William Shakespeare. Then, we took around 20 pics of us "acting" the play and present it to the class with some explanation on the significance of the freeze frames.

It was kinda fun as we used whatever we can get around us for props and costumes!! Wanna look at the results?? Here are some pics! LOL.

Haha! That crown is from Burger King!

Yep!! I'm acting as the ghost (it was supposed to be a ghost wearing armor).

I like this pic because of the lighting effects and the dark mood!

OK. OK. Don't laugh. I look extremely silly with that beard. (That's cotton! They stuck it on my cheek and chin with double-sided tape! OUCH!)

Hehe.. Here comes the ghost again!! (I'm fully wrapped with aluminium foil).

THIS IS THE MAKING OF HAMLET!!

(Got some funny pics to put under this section. But... Sob... I lost my pendrive that had all the pics... Will get the pics the next day from my friends! So wait and look out for the update!)

One of the most ridiculous picture of me... (proud to say that). That's a bowl on my head. Hey! my beard is coming off!!

Hahaha. Random pic.

Please don't laugh at me. It's a girl's shirt. And I hate the lines on them.

No Joke On April Fools' Day

2009-04-01T23:36:00.004+08:00

Want to see the most lame April Fool joke of the century? I found this interesting clip that you might want to checkout. Anyway, my fooling statistics for 2009, I didn't fool anyone but I got fooled once.

Watch this!!

Click the play button.

That Is So Sweet of You...

2009-03-31T01:09:00.009+08:00

It was raining that day. Cold... I made my way into the air-conditioned classroom. Feeling colder, I shrinked the two frames of my shoulder to keep me warm. My eyes darted around the room searching for a familiar figure. Yes, it was her that I was looking for. I wondered how she is surviving the cold.

Yonder, I saw her in bright red. One arm on the other, sitting close to the wall. She has sensitive smooth skin, as light as cream. I watched her laughing jovially with her friends. Once, my eyes could not look away, glued to her pose and she caught me stealing a glimpse of her. In return, she gave me a pleasing smile.

I was contented with her reaction and smiled away, fancying myself sitting side by side with her. "Never mind now, one day I will sit with her and then I'll be the happiest person in the world. At least that's what I'd like to think," I told myself. Soon, the class commenced and I busied myself with work. From time to time, I took stealthy glances at her.

I noticed that her cheeks looked so pale and bloodless. It must be because of the chilly air. How I wished that I could rub my hands against hers to warm her up. "Sigh... What to do? I could just wish and let time to take its course. But its not so bad isn't it? Imagination is as evident as reality to me," I thought as I beckoned to my heart.

Shortly, class ended and the crowd of students dispersed. I waited for her when I came to the stairs, hoping to have a few words. She stayed back for a few minutes to ask some questions from our teacher and I waited still, my back leaning lazily against the wall and my thoughts lingered without a proper direction.

Before long, I heard her footsteps down the stairs. She saw me and stopped by my side, smiling sheepishly.

"You were waiting for me?"

"Yup!"

"Anything to say?"

"Nothing to say, just something to share..."

"Hmm... What is it?"

"Make a wild guess!"

"Come on... You know how lazy I am to think... Tell me! Tell me! I'm eager to know. What is it?"

At that instant, I reached out to her right hand and held it in both of mine, gently. Her tender hand was icy cold that I could feel the frost. I kept it for a few seconds in my grasp. As I let her hand slip, I said :

"Warmth, love and a place in my heart..."

"That is so sweet of you... I have no words to say..."

"I know you were cold. I can tell it from your face. You look weather-beaten and white. Just
wanted to add some colour in it. Care to give me a smile?"

"I'll give you a thousand if I can. Thank you... You really touched me..."

"I should thank you for that lovely smile of yours. It makes my day. Anyway, we should go.
Goodbye."

"Goodnight."

Education Inspector

2009-03-27T17:02:00.006+08:00

Hehe... Another belated post!! Sigh... I'm procrastinating even in blogging. LOL. Well, never mind that. Here's a question, if you are a lecturer and you were told that an education inspector is going to come, what would you do?

Let me tell you what my English Lecturer did, Mr Dave Borden.

He actually discussed with us where to place the inspector when she comes and he found a perfect place! Lol. He said the best place for her was beside the rubbish bin. And yeah, he really did set the table there. RESERVED.

PS : Yan Ming! You demanded an update and here it is. Now I want you to create your blog!!!

CARTOONS UNANIMATED!!

I guess she did an unnamed baby. Father? Unknown too. Random.

I love that dog but I don't want to be its master.

I beleaff spelin is nnot improtant. puh lease sport me?

Watch this video!! Its really really funny! The whole series is funny!!

IELTS Test

2009-03-10T22:37:00.001+08:00

This was on Saturday, 7th March 2009.

A Saturday and I have to get up early. Sickening.

The whole exam process was so so rigid that I couldn't stop hating it. I had my apartment key in my pocket and the invigilator said :

"Do you have anything in the pocket?" (while feeling my jeans pocket... She molesting me!!)

"No, nothing in particular for me to cheat in the exam."

"You have a key in your pocket. I'm sorry you can't bring them in."

"Keys too?" (sigh... never mind...)

We were in the hall 45 mins early... We were told to be there that early. So boring!! More more! All the students placed their pens and pencils on top of the table and on of the invigilator kept saying something that sounded like something else to me.

She said, "Pens down on the floor."

Again, "Pens on the floor."

And again "Pens DOWN."

And all the time I heard PANTS and not pens.

To you my heart away...

2009-02-15T09:31:00.004+08:00

Dear Angel...

Here, to you I give my heart away

For you to ponder deep inside

I see yourself embedded in lay

It's all so clear and nothing to hide

Your presence in my heart makes the roses red

To see your lips so sanguine, blushing for shame

Your tender hands on me you let

Dyed in blood you made my heart shed

My Angel...

Hope you'd try this ring of purest love

The diamond so precious, my love is true

The waves in motion just won't move

But faith and hope in my heart you grew

The living heat your eye beams make

Warmed my heart when it snowed

My faltering voice, your conscious eyes

Your love caught me in by surprise

The vault of heaven make the welkin ring

For my love to wear when she's in sing

Graceful dance your fingers make

When I'm to touch, it seems like fate

The gem is clear no need for foil

Your face, your fame is free from soil

You'll like this dear, cause from me you have it

But I like your love more dear, cause it's you who gave it

So now, here I give away my heart to you

This diamond heart of mine cuts glass and steel

Your love's like force, in my firm heart I feel

Both equal in love, we sought our bliss

Sweetheart...

As long as I live, I promise...

You'd remain under the aegis of me..

You... To whom I gave my heart away...

(I love this poem. This is one of the best poems on love I made so far)

Friday the 13th

2009-02-14T12:40:00.008+08:00

Anyone said bad luck? I had always wondered why people keep saying that its bad luck on Friday 13th. Guess I would just have to find out! And yeah I did.

The whole day I was blabbering to my friends about the significance of the date. We opened registration for a new club that we formed. And guess what? They HAD to make a Friday 13th poster for some gooey attractive purpose. It was of black and red. Sorry I don't have a pic of it, it did look cool. Will get it tomorrow. LOL.

And then I had a debate today and it went well. (no effect of bad luck of any sort)

I went to Times Square with a friend to meet another friend. And... This is when it happened. My very slim hand phone slid off my pocket and I lost it. On the way back.

Very fortunate huh? Lost all my contacts. Lost my credit. Lost some valuable messages. No, priceless. Lost the only evidence I had to send a "BEST" friend of mine to jail. (I'm no traitor, note the double quotation). And now I'm a hand phoneless guy. Lol.

Yeah. That's the phone. Well, one lucky thing was... I did not change the screen after I broke it some time ago. If not it would have been a waste.
For that one reason, I guess I could afford a smile.

Hehehe.

Debate!!

2009-02-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

Woohooo!! In for a debate tomorrow!! Hope I could get a kick out of it. MUST put the best of all. LOL.

See? I'm already getting all excited! Passion passion!! Haha!! I would never disappoint those who gave their heart to me. I've got a weird team!! Me an Indian, a Korean girl and a Malay guy. Very mixed up team! Unique eh?

We are in for it! And yeah, losing is never an option!!

Hmm... Actually im making too much fuss over a mock debate. The worst is coming next week! LOL! KDU competition!!

Secret Admirer!!

2009-02-09T00:26:00.002+08:00

OK. Here's a real breakthrough! I have a secret admirer!! LOL. That's what I'd like to believe anyway.

Yeah! Just an hour ago I received a message in my hand phone from some unknown number.

"Hi Darling..."

I was like huh? A message with Darling? I thought that was ages ago...

I replied quite late as I was not aware that I had a message.

"Yes honey?"

But... Till now no reply... Sob...

Mourning...

I have a hunch that its that fucked up guy trying to play tricks with me again. Well I do have hundreds of free sms left so.... Well lets just entertain and get entertained for a little longer... LOL (evil laughter)

A Thought Of Murder

2009-02-08T21:55:00.004+08:00

Murder. To kill or not to kill?

Oh yeah baby. I'm sooo hooked up on this. I found myself an enemy!! Haha! Actually he found me. I call him the Crackbrained Cracker. The case is that he goes around stealing identities. He colonialised my Friendster and I had to abandon it permanently. I lost a blog, a WHOLE blog because of that ass sniffer. Devil.

I have a brain of a detective. I found out who he is and that does it. He's gonna die. You think you can get out of this without a mess? Think again. You've invited trouble and a BIG one too. I'll make sure you get skinned alive. LOL. You really got the wrong person to mess with big guy. I might be small but my little brain spins twice as fast compared to yours.

You dug your own grave. I'm waiting for the right time to take you down. Just don't think that I'm not gonna do anything about it. I have enough proof dickhead. We'll celebrate your departure to hell later on. Haha. Good luck with your remaining lifetime. Enjoy while you can.

Signing off...

Yours truly...

Short Term Memory Loss

2009-02-01T13:46:00.008+08:00

Gosh! I guess I'm really going mad! Its been happening for some time...

FIRST ENCOUNTER

I was in the elevator going down the floor of my apartment. Heading straight out of the building, I met two of my friends.

"Where you guys went la?"

"Just got back from Sunway. Where are you heading?"

"Well... (I paused) I'm not sure where I'm going la..."

"Huh? You serious?"

"Weh! I really forgot why I came down!! (I swear I couldn't remember) Wait... I remember I
wanted to do something important though... Sigh..."

"Thilages, are you for real?" (laughing away)

"Yalah yalah... Somehow It will get to my brain as I walk."

"OMG!! (hearty laughter) Wish you luck!!" (with a nasty smile on the face)

(Slapped forehead)

"My luck..."

Don't ask me what happened after that. It was a Friday 13 to me.

I walked to Mydin. I was pretty sure I was about to head there before. (actually I wasn't sure at all and I hoped that I was)

Feeling thirsty, I grabbed a bottle of coke. Took some titbits and brought it up to the counter.
(still wondering whether it was this that I wanted to do)

When I opened my wallet to pay the bills, I was in for a shock. Damn. Now I know why I came out in the first place... I'M BROKE! And I was after the CIMB bank which is in Summit.

"It's RM 15.10. Do you have ten cents?"

(dead... How am I gonna get out of this mess??)

"Err... " (giving a puzzled look and pretending to search for a penny in the pocket)

"Its ok if you don't have ten cents."

"Well, that's not the case. The problem is... I don't have anything in my wallet... See?" (showed her my empty wallet)

"You have treats point card. You can use that."

"Oh yeah!! I forgot! Thanks!" (phew... saved...)

* Lesson to be learned
- be aware of empty pockets, check before you order...

Evil Papers!!

2009-01-18T09:41:00.000+08:00

Tests. Darn them! Those papers... Whenever I see them looks as if they've got two red horns like a devil. Devil hunting for don't know what.

I can hardly find time for some heavenly pieces right here on this page. But I'm given SUFFICIENT amount of time for those papers where I write my hell of a piece. So they say.

I'm crapping. I wish I could burn them like hell note. LOL. That wouldn't happen would it?

The Peace Ambassador

2009-01-16T22:16:00.006+08:00

It's weird. That's all I have to say. What's wrong with me wearing white?? Ok I was in a formal attire today. So? Anyone has anything against me? LOL. Good. I'd take silence as a NO. Perfect.

It all started like this :

~ Timeline ~

(of course its not that accurate)

SEPTEMBER 2008

0615 :
I chose my clothes from the wardrobe. White long sleeve, Lentino with black pants. Formal.

0625 :
My housemate,
"Hey! Do you have presentation today?"
"Nope. Just wearing it for world peace day."

0630 :
(in the lift)
"Jeremy! What's with the outfit today??"
I smiled - "Nothing. Just for peace."

0700 :
(in the campus cafe)
One of my girl friends,
"Whoah! You look smart."
"Gee.. thanks." (blushed. she is sweet anyway)

0700 - 0745 :
(i was in the cafe)
"You look so formal, what's up?"
"Why are you looking so smart huh?"

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bla bla bla...

Everyone who passed by my table questioned me. Was that suppose to be a compliment or... Hmm... Do I look so odd? Wait.. then I went to the library before class.

(the librarian, a lady)
"Excuse me Mr, are you from Taylors? Do you have a staff ID?"
I went, "Huh? I'm a student. And here's my STUDENT ID." Sigh...

0800 : My first period,

Miss Natalie (my ENG lecturer, Canadian) :
Gave me an odd look, "You're so supportive."
"Thanks Miss." =)

And then, the whole class bombarded me with questions about what I was wearing... I kept repeating my answer to each and everyone politely.. but.. (Man.. Why did I wear this damned thing? Don't treat me like a mascot.) I wondered About my fate for the next class.. Well, FYI each of my class are not of the same students.

0915 :
Was so relieved that out of 20 only around 4 interrogated me! Phew...

1145 : Break time.

Met my friends for lunch. More comments... But at least they didn't ask me WHY?? And said I look nice instead.. hey hey.. I'm getting the hang of it now. LOL. (perasan)
Oh yeah, and the mascot for peace, which is me had a significance of my own. Was dubbed "Peace Ambassador."

1300 : Chemistry

Mr Andrew :

"Hey! Going for an interview or something?"
"Nope. Peace Ambassador from the United Nations."

That's how it went. It wasn't a peaceful day after all. I had to wait for my bus for 2 hours. Damn. And I was swearing at the bus driver. Peace, mister...

Anyway, I looked something like this. LOL!!
Peace radiating white.

Ok. Done with the crap.

1730 : Reached home. Took my bath. Jumped on my bed. Now it's peaceful. Mmmm... Zzzz...

Peace at last...

One is bad enough... but three???

2009-01-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

Guys, have you ever tried shopping with girls before? Well, things might have been different for you as it was for me. One is green; peaceful. Two is yellow; a bit cocky. Three or more is red; danger and you would want to wish to get back home alive, safe and sound. I took the RED ones out. No complaints, my mistake. LOL.

It was a fine night. I headed to the restaurant for dinner, when the ends got loose and I found myself being a thorn among the roses. Sweet they are. It wasn't planned. Three gals and a guy. Ate a single roti canai though I was starving. The trio intended to shop for a birthday present for a friend, in Mydin roughly 5 minutes walk from our apartment.

Me : I'm coming too. If you don't mind? Gonna check my balance.
(hehe... could practise a little flirting now)

(my #1 mistake)

Girls : Of course we wouldn't mind! You're most welcome! (he got the bait!)

And that was that. Laughing and crapping together, we tracked our path. The trio were making a supreme effort trying to relate me with one of them. Hmm... Let me think... It wouldn't be fair for the other two if I chose just one to be my pair and so I thought of an alternative. Why not all?
(GOSH! =O I'm a casanova)

(my #2 mistake)

Upon reaching, I checked my balance and told them that i'm done. They still had things in their mind though. Knowing that it would be awkward if I leave, I decided to tag along like a parasite. (guess it won't take long)

(my #3 mistake)

I enjoyed moments of laughter. Then I realized that they were still clueless of what to buy!! That means trouble. I helped and joined the hunt. They chose I commented. (a critic again..)
But... they just don't want to STOP!!! Darn. 1 hour flew. Will they ever decide? Sigh..

Girl #1 : Hey! I'm done!

Girl #2 : Me too!

Girl #3 : Lets pay and head back!

Me : Phew... At last...

Girls : Yes? Any problem?

Me : Nope! Nothing! Make a move now. (Yeah!! My laptop waiting for me!)

We paid and got down the elevator when one said something about food piles to stock up. (sign of more shopping to be made)

And so... I ended up walking around the mall again... Sigh... Round and round... Chocolates, milk, biscuits... Sob... They won't spare any!! By that time I told my little heart not to break into tears of regret. (I repent)

Another 30 minutes gone by the shopping carts and it was the end. I hope. Oh yeah it was. We walked back. They offered me "gifts" for accompanying them. Its not sweet to reject and so I sticked out my hands like a wooden puppet and proudly received my "gifts." Darn it.

(my #4 mistake)

(I should have known, these girls are smart. Sigh.. Sucks to my underestimation. I thought they were innocent.)

RED ALERT (Tips for the innocent guys)

gifts after a shopping spree = lots and loads of burden to carry

Lesson Learned.

CARTOONS UNANIMATED!!!

Chicken's shopping list. Short and simple.
Chick's? NO way!!!

This is an irrelevant chicken talk. Well, they mentioned shopping anyway.

I didn't know chicken's were so involved in the pony sellling business. I bet they are phonies. Don't shop for one of these.

I have no idea of what's going on. LOL.
The chicken is telling the truth. Trust me.

I'm not spending half my life eating tripe to give you lots of free entertainment in the market. But, hell, if someone else wants to eat tripe, what do I care?

All in my wife's wardrobe right now. Stop searching and come to my house.

It happens.

Nerds or non-nerds. Shopping is terrible.

Happy shopping guys. I wish you luck. ^_^

Fingers Away!

2009-01-07T12:35:00.016+08:00

I was up late last night, on the bed with my laptop on top of my lap. Trying to sleep yet the cyber world was too tempting to resist. It's free anyway, so why not? LOL. Then, at one time I guess i fell asleep and had a weird dream. Finicky dream about fingers. I was startled by a creepy sound and woke up to find one of my housemate sleeping in the hall, the TV on, AXN but muted, he was snoring out loud with his MIDDLE FINGER in his mouth. Ooo... Finger... and mouth... and saliva... a finger job? I wonder...

So, I Googled "finger" for the sake of killing time; I couldn't sleep after that. I found some funny pics from hemmy.net, my gratitudes to the site. Well, then this is what I did after that :

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This pic reminded me of someone back in my past!Anyway, cute and nerdy look alike.

The delivery is here! I ordered McD, I guess this is the delivery guy. I didn't know he would come all up to the 19th floor. Thanks, blue-eyed John Doe.

This is what happened next. BURPPPP!!!

And then... after struggling with my stomach...
Ewwww... Gross!!!!

Soon... I went from KO to OK. I wanted badly to go to the beach to get some relaxing but realized KL is made of nothing but buildings, buildings and buildings. Suffocation. Argghhh!! I ended up imagining instead. I'm telling you, imagination is bliss. LOL. Just look at me! Cool huh?

Not enough of that peculiar stuffs, I did some online NST-ing. And I got mad. Real mad. Racists flooding our government and no action to curb this ongoing malicious phenomenon. Instead its ISA for those who expressed freedom of speech. What the hell is going on??

The Prime Minister is scared? Chills running down perhaps, scared he would lose the government... Lol... I can imagine... Like this...
Hehehe...

And Zaid, you pissed me off alright. What crap are you talking about??! A cute young lady reporter detained under ISA because of you!! You should be in there instead. Damn. Damn. DAMN!! WTF! Even animals can rule the government with the likes of you. Imprudent, impudent, impertinent. What more can I say? Sigh... disappointed... I guess i'll let my finger do the talking. Here you go... My gratitudes.

I'm sorry to say, but you people deserve my finger.
LOL.

Oh my god!!! Guess what happened the next second I posted this? (Foreshadowing the future.)

Prime Minister : Mr Neo Intrepidus, you are under arrest and will be detained under the
Internal Security Act.

Me : But... WHY??? I know nothing!!

Prime Minister : Your finger is accused of sodomising politicians a few seconds ago.

Me : WHAT THE F**K??!!

Prime Minister : Yeah, your finger did that. Now come with me.

Me : LOL. This is what happens. Goodnight folks.

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Damn. Now, I'm under ISA too. Who is gonna start the revolution?? Help me.. and join me.. Hehe...

That's my finger alright.
LOL.

Those who were offended, my sincere apologies. =)